I don't really expect response.........

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Registered: 01-07-2005
I don't really expect response.........
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Thu, 02-17-2005 - 3:52pm
But I just had to get this out....it's been a week of no contact. I think it has finally hit me that I will never, ever hold him again. I won't get to feel his mustache tickle my nose as he kisses me. I won't ever get to talk to him about daily trivial stuff and important stuff. I never get to touch his face again. I never feel his arms around me again. I will never have him again in anyway or any circumstance. It is truly over. I have really lost him. I am not doing well.
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Registered: 03-13-2004
Thu, 02-17-2005 - 4:54pm

kelly,

hang in there, just post in this board, like me i just try to answer even if i dont make any sense just to keep my mind off her

just like most of us, we wont do or feel thoe things u said anymore but we can do other things also, when we are ready we can feel them again in another healthy relatioship, not in a AFFAIR, i think those feelings are bi-product of lies and deciet and hiding from friends, it is wht affairs are, im sorry but now its how i think of it, love,lust, attention, all feelings that comes from a not normal situation, it comes from lying and deceiving or H or W or OW/OM wife or husband, not good i think

be strong, pls forgive me if i hurt your feelings, this is just my own opinion at this time, i too am struggling with what u said, i will never do any of those with OW and will never feel her touch and hear her smile and see her laughter ...

max

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Registered: 10-13-2004
Thu, 02-17-2005 - 5:18pm

I know how you feel. It sucks to realize what you've lost.

But on the other hand, you will eventually come to realize that he was never YOURS to lose. What you had was stolen. If he was meant to be yours, he would be. I know that sounds like an oversimplified statement, but it's the straight truth.

Stick with your NC and you will eventually start to feel better. You will be better. You'll realize that you almost lost something even more important than him... YOU.

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Registered: 03-26-2003
Thu, 02-17-2005 - 7:04pm
I read your post and cried and cried, how terrible to feel that way but i do feel the same way. I miss him SO much it's driving me nuts. I don't even know what to do anymore, I just feel lost, lost and going no where. I don't know what to do anymore.....don't have a clue!!!!
M-
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Registered: 11-08-2004
Thu, 02-17-2005 - 10:37pm
Try not to think of the nevers. They took my breath away in the beginning. So i tried to push them out. just said I wont conatct today. After a little while the nevers didnt hurt as bad. The pain gets less and the thoughts of nevers become livable.
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Registered: 03-25-2003
Fri, 02-18-2005 - 10:01am

Kelly, it's not about him.


It's about you.


You have regained yourself. A whole person.


No more lies and skulking to settle for a hidden relationship.


You count.


BIGTIME.


There are a lot of mustaches out there belonging to single men. Find them.


cl-nre

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Registered: 09-09-2003
Fri, 02-18-2005 - 11:11am

Hi Kelly. I have been in NC with MM for just over 4 weeks now. I didn't even have any notice this was going to happen, but it seems like he's decided to end it.

You can get thru this. Take it one day at a time and you will make it. Try NOT to think about him, occupy your mind and time with other things that can make you happy or give you some comfort. Go to the show with some friends, have a few laughs where you can.

I am trying not to think of the "I'll never" stuff too. It hurts too much and I just have been thru this a few too many times and don't want to go there again.

Take care and keep strong.

Dusty

xxxx