I emailed him......

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Registered: 02-15-2005
I emailed him......
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Tue, 02-22-2005 - 12:23pm

Okay, I am SO stupid. I emailed him. We have had NC for about 2 months and I emailed him. WHY???? The worst part is he didn't even respond back. I am so hurt and so confused. I am working so hard to get my M back on track and recapture those feelings I had for my H but I am SO hurt. I feel like I could cry right now. I feel so rejected and humiliated. I guess I was just a piece of A-- for him.

HELP!

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Registered: 01-06-2005
Tue, 02-22-2005 - 1:01pm

We all get those sudden urges to email/make contact. I must admit I did the same thing moments ago, though my situation has only been NC for a few days at a time for the last few weeks, with ALWAYS me being the initiator....I am so embarassed that I keep pursuing this ....you are not alone.

2 months of NC is fantastic....one little slip up doesnt matter...continue on the track you were on

Remember you are not alone
SP




Edited 4/14/2005 2:00 pm ET ET by spanishtrain
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Registered: 12-02-2004
Tue, 02-22-2005 - 2:05pm
torented,
Dont beat yourself up. Just learn from how you feel right now. It is probably for the best that he did not respond. Do you really want it to all start up again after you have worked so hard at NC for so long? Think about the anguish and pain you felt when you first started NC. The unanswered questions. The confusion. As far as feeling like a piece of A, you will never actually KNOW what he really thinks or thought of you. And sometimes it is best not to know. We don't have to always know everything. Remember that. It took me a bit to figure that out. I humiliated myself in the meantime as well.
Try to work on your M, and move past the A.
It's O.K to cry and just feel like Sh*t time and again as well.
Good luck to you sister!
~nuttmeg
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Registered: 03-13-2004
Tue, 02-22-2005 - 6:32pm

hi T,

your not stupid, we all have our setbacks, im sitting here in my office and i can hear OW talk in her office

im going nuts but i need to get used to it and just learn to ignore all of it, its an uphil climb

u are way ahead of most of us, u just took one step back, u are fine , just move forward and keep on going, we all hope to catch up with u soon in that climb to independence and NC

im going nuts, its not even funny anymore, i try to laugh but i could not anymore, try to find humor in all of this but i cant, i wish we can all laugh it all off

take care,
max