I ended it..........

iVillage Member
Registered: 03-26-2003
I ended it..........
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Tue, 03-02-2004 - 10:21am
I cried all weekend. I knew I had to end it yesterday. I stayed home from work. I called xMM, we talked about our relationship. I told him that I could not go on, with the way things were. Him leaving his W, made things worse. For some reason, he keeps lying to me, even after he left home. He basically told me that his W and daughter are a package deal. They come together. I could not continue on those terms. That's neither here nor there. I was tired of living like that. Our whole relationship built on a lie.

He was angry, then he thought it was all a joke, and basically laughed in my face.

I dreamed about him last night. I can't believe I've done this. I have not felt this empty in ever. I'm sure I'll be posting here a lot. I can't find the words to describe how I'm feeling. So, I'll just leave it at that.

iVillage Member
Registered: 02-22-2004
Tue, 03-02-2004 - 10:40am
You don't need words to describe it, because I'm sure we all know how you feel... And there is nothing worse than that empty feeling, and trying to find something to fill it with, and thinking that you're going to feel empty forever....

I'm sorry you're going through this, it really does suck, trust me, I know!!! And it will get better, I promise.

I'm just glad I found this place, it helps a lot to have people that truly understand.

I try to remind myself that I am only human and that it's ok to let myself be sad and to hurt.

We're all here for you ((HUGS)))

iVillage Member
Registered: 03-25-2003
Tue, 03-02-2004 - 12:33pm

You don't deserve to be lied to. By anyone.


You don't deserve to have someone you love laugh in your face. Particularly when you're saying good-bye.


We've all felt the pain you're feeling ending our affairs.


The pain WILL pass and you WILL

iVillage Member
Registered: 03-25-2003
Fri, 03-05-2004 - 5:17pm
Secretluver-Bumping this up so you can re-read and draw strength........cl-nre