I ended it Saturday and it was ugly
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I ended it Saturday and it was ugly
| Wed, 10-06-2010 - 9:23pm |
Hi Everyone,
I worte my SG an email on Saturday asking him not to contact me anymore due to his not accepting me the way I am, not respecting my views even though I respect his and the fact that I am here in town and he had not put any effort into seeing me was pretty clear he was no longer interested.

Nolove,
Welcome to the board - I'm just catching up, so I'm sorry not to have posted sooner - I'm Lolly, a fairly newbie (2 months in - original board name was Lellibee) - in the midst of a D from STBX and going throught he end of my A to xAP (old high school flame reconnected via FB) with 3 kids in tow and all the regular real-life stressors.
Love4me,
I really liked reading how you have already realized that you miss the AP who never really existed and not the actual AP who does.
Love4you,
Welcome to EAS and to the beginning of a life lead with dignity. Like Dee said, it's great to see you already able to differentiate the fantasy AP from the reality AP. This is a huge relatization and one that will serve you well as you move forward. I remember thinking, when he told me he was leaving W, that i wasn't so sure I wanted him now that it was becoming a reality. Really, what was I getting: a substance using, lying cheating coward. Not a prize. Nor was I a prize for him to win. Nope - two very lost and damaged people taking the easy way outta our real life problems.
Congrat's on finding the courage to face reality ... and again, welcome (-:
TU.
Hey Love
I think you are spot on when you say we miss the AP we fantasised about- not the AP they actually were! I keep saying that all the time in my head- 'he wasnt the man I invented him to be'!
Iggyx