I finally had my day in the sun -happy
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| Fri, 01-14-2005 - 10:24am |
My XMM and h have been talking alot again. They work together. They have been talking about getting together again like we used to. Keep in mind my XMM used to avoid my h and not suggest getting together ever. Now lately he has. Last night my XMM asked my h to talk to me about letting him go to Dallas with him sometime. Well, Xmm's best friend lives in Dallas and is the biggest cheater of all time. Then they talked about getting together again sometime. My husband told me he doesn't want to hang around my Xmm and family bc they were just too wild. Also he got the impression that XMM wants to go out and do all the stuff without his wife. His wife is pregnant. Well, the last time I called him three days after we said our goodbyes he did not want to talk to me and asked to call me back. Never did(four months). I told him I wanted to talk to him. He obviously didn't care. Iwas was so hurt for the last four months bc he after everything he didn't want to talk to me. I have agonized over that last call for months. Well, I was so mad at XMM for wanting to be buddies with my husband again and wanting all of us to hang out. The nerve of him. I called him this morning after 4 months. This was our conversation:
He answered and I said
I would appreciate it if you would not drag my h into your world of lies and deceit.
XMM: come back what
I repated my sentence to him and he said that he was about to start his meeting. He then said that he was going to call me today and wanted to talk to me and asked to call me back.
I almost fell for it and asked why and then firmly said to him - No, I don't want you to call me back, I don't want to talk to you, I don't want to be friends with you, hang out with you or have anything to do with you. Get over it and stop trying to make plans with my husband then I yelled f@@K! and hung up.
It felt great bc he was nice and wanted to talk to me and I made it clear that I want nothing to do with him. I know it was immature to call and do that but it gave me back my sense of pride and ego that I did not want to talk to him this time. I almost cried when I got off the phone bc I was so happy for being as strong as I was and not falling for his crap again.
It took four months to feel this way but it was worth it. I hate to admit that I am curious in a small way to know why he wanted to call me today and talk to me after four months. I guess he just said that bc I let the gate open to communication again. Well he is in tough Sh@@!

merehud,
<<<<f@@K! and hung up.>>>>>
High Five Girlfriend! I wish I had as big of ba**s as you.
Hope this keeps you feeling great all weekend. You are one tough cookie!
~nuttmeg
Good for you, merehud! Now don't you dare weaken by calling him back to see what he wanted to talk to you about. I know you want to. Keep your resolve to maintain the power because that's what it's all about.
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