i got an email

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Registered: 03-13-2004
i got an email
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Sun, 03-06-2005 - 10:00pm

hi all,

i sent OW email 2 weeks ago, the content was just asking her how her weekend was, i was not expecting a reply anymore

today i got a reply from her asking me how i was doing, and what did i do this weekend, she also told me she went to see her brother who is sick, other than that she just said hi and hope that i had a fun weekend

now i am just over thinking this again, i just got the email about 20 minutes ago, i dont know if i should be happy or sad, no feelings so far, maybe she is still thinking of me, oh well i cant think like this or else ill go nuts again

just when u think u are doing well, another setback for me, this time it did not do that much harm or pain to me, but still it made me think of her again

im just killing myself slowly i guess

max

tomorrow and for the next 5 days should be fun again

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Registered: 03-03-2005
Sun, 03-06-2005 - 11:17pm
You aren't going to respond to the e-mail are you Max? I know it would be nearly impossible for me not to, but I hope that you don't. Well, we both see the AP (is that the right term?) tomorrow and all next week. I hope that we are both ok.
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Registered: 12-28-2003
Sun, 03-06-2005 - 11:49pm

Max

DELETE THE E-MAIL AND BLOCK HER ADDRESS, end of story no more DRAMA.

Free

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Registered: 03-13-2004
Mon, 03-07-2005 - 12:05am

free, fallon,

NO, i have not replied to her email and i will not reply, she sent it to my work email, i actually closed my email account which i used to use for our emails

i made a mistake before of sending her email using our work email, that was 2 weeks ago, i was so surprised she replied today

Free, u are right, its more drama again, i dont want drama anymore, she did not choose me so thats it, i should be able to live with that and move on, i lost so to speak , i should move on

max

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Registered: 03-13-2004
Mon, 03-07-2005 - 11:45pm

kris,all,

i think OW is still trying to do something, im not sure, today she was for no reason upset at me, i saw her in coffee room and she just told me that i need to leave her alone this week coz she is stressed out and she got a couple of job interviews this week, she told me to stay away from her this week

i have no idea, i been keeping to myself and she is the one telling me this, we meet in the hallway and say hi and she would start a short conversation and now its all my fault again

i am trying to get out, slowly i am taking my life back, i think she sees me now not looking to depress , oh she again told me that she is sorry to get upset at me at work today, she just told me before i lfet actually, i am always very cordial to her and still very nice, i actually told her its all my fault just to shut her up

too much drama going on, i dont know when will this end, i think me and OW could not be friends anymore, she is a changed person , i dont even know her anymore, not the same person i thoughht i feel in love with

:(
max

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Registered: 03-03-2005
Tue, 03-08-2005 - 12:51am
I was wondering how it went for you today, Max. Wow, you talked more to her than I talked to MM. It sounds like she's just trying to stir all the drama up again. I know what you mean about not "knowing" her anymore. I remember so many times asking MM (in a conversation in my head) "who are you? I don't know which is the real you?"
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Registered: 03-03-2005
Tue, 03-08-2005 - 9:22am
Max,
Just read your post. R u on the net right now? That must be real hard, I could not imagine having to see MM everyday at work. Guess my situation could be worse. My MM is an athelete and I do see him on the news occasionally. I hate it when it happens. It can ruin my whole day.
As far as the email, that is a tough one. I am not sure how to handle such things. I rarely ever hear from my MM directly. I either initiated contact or he contacts me thru his friend. I could no even reach him to tell him it was over if I tried. At this point, I have to hope I am strong enough to say no when he does contact the mutual friend to call me. Me and the friend speak regularly anyway. So I never know when he calls if he has some message for me.
I hope you try to be strong. I know there is a lot of pain. I know I am in a lot, regularly. I look forward to no more dreams and thoughts. I just hope this happens soon. I hope today is better for you. And that you make the right decision with regards to the email. I mean all it takes is a call or email and we both know what happens. Just stay strong.