I just did it
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I just did it
| Tue, 02-17-2004 - 5:12pm |
I ended it with MM. I know in my heart that it was the righ thing to do. I feel numb inside.
I don't know what to do. I'm sure this will be a long night.

Big hugs and well wishes for you over these next few days. Of course, you made the right decision...but we all know just how difficult it is. I'm in Day 13 of NC and its been 7 weeks since we last saw and talked. The ending of the relationship was my idea (that he agreed with) and it is still pretty rough at times (like TODAY!)....there are days when I think "this was a good decision...it would have led nowhere, it was impossible for it to continue" but then there are days where I think "omg! I'm never going to see him, speak to him or email him ever again" and I fill with panic....but then I remind myself of why I got to this point...and it settles down somewhat.
I just keep reading the posts from people here who have been in NC much longer and really latch onto their stories that it gets better with time.
Best of luck.....post here as often as you need to!!!
dharma
this is a big day. you're very vulnerable in the next few days. Be strong.
I ended a 3 year affair almost a year ago. It was the best thing that ever happened to me. Affairs have nowhere to go but disaster. If you're like me, you got out before disaster struck. My ExH could have used knowledge of the affair against me with our children, but he didn't. My MM's wife could have found out, but she didn't. My xMM could have gone nuts when I ended it, but he didn't. I could have fallen apart, had a nervous breakdown or just screwed up my life terribly, but I didn't. Really the only bad thing that happened was that a few friends ended our friendship because they disapproved so strongly. Most friends never gave up on me but also never let me forget I was wrong.
All the terrible things that could have happened, didn't. I thank God everyday that I somehow found the inner strength to do the right thing and to break free of the prison the A had become.
Soon after I met a wonderful single guy. We're together now and it's the best relationship I've ever had. Even without the new guy, I feel so free and good. No more half-way relationship that left me feeling guilty and depressed.
Today is going pretty good so far. I pray that xMM won't try to call me at work today. I need this time away from him, and to get my thoughts together.
Thanks
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