I know this is wrong
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| Thu, 02-24-2005 - 5:12pm |
I know this is wrong but I just saw the ex wife go by in the opposite direction of where she lives and in the direction of where he lives and it's driving me crazy that she might be over at his house. He has their son so I wonder if he invited her over for supper. I want to drive by his house but I can't. This wrong. He and I are thru and I have to get it thru my head and most importantly, my heart. I miss him so much. I miss talking to him and smelling him and touching him. Having him call me and tell me he loves me. I have felt so alone in this until now. Now that I know others have been thru this and have made it I feel like I can make it too. I read some of the other posts and I thought I was reading my own story. Wow, I'm really not alone. That feeling is amazing. I hope you guys can help me. I to have thought about suicide but I know I could never do it but the pain is so bad.
This have to get better soon.
Robin

robin,
pls dont even think of hurting yourself, i know the feeling is very painful, u feel like the sky has fallen down on you but its not worth it, your family loves you, your friends loves you, we all care about u in this board, pls keep posting if u feel like venting or talking or whatever, just post anything if u want
hey, im jut like u, i want to drive at OW house, i actually did, my god how stupid was that, i felt like a stalker, if she knew she would probably freak out , i know how it feels, up to now i still think of her all the time, i wander what she is doing now, who is she with, is she happy or sad, i get to see her at work also so it make it even harder for me but im taking it one day at a time, just keep on going, rent some funny movies
but like i said, dont forget to eat and feed yourself, u dont want to be weak and get sick
take care,
max
Thanks for listening. I feel so alone.
u r not alone, we are all here, i know how it feels, OW lives like 10 miles away, so easy to go there, i think of here all the time, i wonder what she is doing ...etc...
the thinking will drive us crazy, u have to keep yourself busy, i know its easier said than done but u/we can do it
post on this board if u feel lonely, im single and i live by myself, so my only companion at nite is my tv set, sometimes i get a call from a friend or i call a friend but they all have lives to live also, so most of the time i read the psit here and write, i watch tv or read a book, i have a problem sleeping, i fall asleep in the couch all the time, i cant sleep in my bed coz i keep thinking of OW so i watch tv until i fall asleep
i lost a lot of weight and i cant seem to gain it, the most hardest time is on the weekends, i cant seem to drag myself out of the house
u missed the routine, we are sometimes a creature of habit and now that feeling of doing the same thing with him is gone and we are experiencing withdrawal symptoms
take care, i love coffee ice cream btw ,
max
Robin... you will get through this once you start living YOUR life and stop obsessing over his....which you do know you have no control over.
Cry, scream, punch a pillow or a wall....cry until you can't cry anymore but then, you have to let it and HIM go simply because you ARE worth so much more then you are giving yourself.
Put YOURSELF first will ya? Once the sanity comes back.... it feels GREAT!
robin,
i once read an article which said those thoughts of suicide are to end the feelings of being hurt and not really your life.
it is very painful. but each day it does get better.
my life changed after my A. i am no longer the happy person i use to be. I am not happy in my relationship with my H and i feel the emptiness of the attention i use to get from OM.
my only advise is...NC. that is really the only thing that will help you move on and with time you will put him behind you.
hope you have a nice day...