I miss him but ....
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I miss him but ....
| Wed, 11-24-2010 - 7:08am |
When I wake every morning..my thoughts go to ex AP BUT the good things are:
I dont wake with a knot in the pit of my stomach
My hands don't ache from being clenched all night
I look in the mirror and smile and like who I see
sooooo its not all bad.....Have a good day everyone!:smileyhappy:
MC

Yay!!! Isn't that a great feeling, MC?? So happy and excited for you. I'm 43 days NC and until late last week, he was the first thing I thought of when I woke. (Didn't spend too much time thinking about him, but dang if he wasn't still on my subconscious mind.) This week, I thought of him upon awakening only a couple times. Whew. It takes time, but those thoughts and memories do indeed fade as you immerse yourself in your healing process and real life.
I especially like that you can look in the mirror and smile. You're a pretty terrific woman, aren't you? Much love,
~alwayst2
Hi,
My xAP is MM, so it was't me you were thinking of. I was on this board for a while in Feb, then later in April/May time frame. Like a fool, I couldn't quite get the hang of it and went back twice. This is the longest I've been NC and I do believe I got it right this time!! Ain't no going back now. :)
I hate to hear that you are struggling. As you know, you've come back to the right place. I hope you stick around and share your story with everyone. Perhaps a "refresher" course is exactly what you need to help with your struggles. I remember your moniker but not your story. Stay strong, girl.