I miss my H

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Registered: 10-25-2009
I miss my H
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Fri, 04-16-2010 - 7:50pm

I do!

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Registered: 03-17-2010
In reply to: kmg6
Sat, 04-17-2010 - 12:24am

((kmg6))


But, if others who lurk and post here read my post and turn away from their xap's before its too late, then I will be gratified.


I'm one of those kmg and had i come across at the start of my EA, I should have avoided

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Registered: 04-01-2010
In reply to: kmg6
Sat, 04-17-2010 - 7:08am

kmg, your pain is heard loud and clear. You are paying the ultimate price right now for the self indulgence of having

Oct. 12, 2010 -- began my personal search and rescue mission.
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Registered: 01-16-2010
In reply to: kmg6
Sun, 04-18-2010 - 2:57pm

Kmg6 (HUGS)),

You've responded to me before and I have followed your posts closely. You always have so much insight. Thank you for sharing your feelings though I know you are in so so much pain. I wonder what I would do or how I would feel in your situation. It has crossed my mind hundreds of times the severe consequences of having my A discovered...and what it would do to my H, and the family.

I had so much hate for my H when my A started. That was two years ago. Now...things have changed a bit. My H can still be an Ahole, no doubt, but he has mellowed, as has my extreme hatred for him. Now, I face the fact that much of the hate/anger at my H was misdirected and actually caused by me, my own issues and insecurities. My anger and depression (which they say is anger, turned inwards...just a thought) have been caused by my emotional issues that I haven't faced.

After reading your post I am sitting here wondering if i would miss my H. I do not know. I think I would. I think he does much more than I realize. I think he cares more than I realize. Maybe the A fog has clouded my judgement so much that I have not wanted to see the things that H does for our marriage and our family. I think, once the reality of him being gone set in, I would freak out. He's been such a part of my life for years...if he left me, I just don't know how I would pick up the pieces.

My thoughts are wandering, and I apologize. You have given me a lot to think about.

Hugs to you, and thank you,
Misty