I need an ear

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Registered: 08-27-2008
I need an ear
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Sun, 12-20-2009 - 1:44pm

so today is just one of those days I think. I woke up and everything was good then I went to my sisters and the drive over I started to think about XAP. I dont know if its cause of the holidays are coming, but he hasnt left my head since.


The last form of contact we did have, I simply said to him if Im not the one then you need to stay away. Now the gravity of that is hitting me

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Registered: 07-24-2005
In reply to: dm2006
Sun, 12-20-2009 - 2:52pm

I'm sorry you've been blindsided by some intense emotions.


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Registered: 12-07-2009
In reply to: dm2006
Sun, 12-20-2009 - 6:58pm

DM,


Okay, so you had an emotional day where your mind traveled back into time, but

   ~Iddy~ 


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Registered: 09-29-2009
In reply to: dm2006
Tue, 12-22-2009 - 12:09am
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Edited 1/3/2010 3:20 pm ET by classy01
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Registered: 08-27-2008
In reply to: dm2006
Tue, 12-22-2009 - 8:22am

Good Morning Classy,


<<Do you think him not picking you has nothing to do with you absolutely nothing, he would not have chosen anyone, once the pressure was on he would take off.>>> This is true and I do try to remind myself of his ways. Its sometimes difficult because he made me feel special to be with him, I wanted to better myself because of him. Youre so right, he will never know the meaning of truly loving someone(well not anytime soon) hes got too much work to do on himself.


Clarity and Iddy are right. I did give away my power 4+ months ago by leaving the open-ended question to him, but that WAS 4+ months ago. I cant take it back , I can only grow and learn from it.


(confession)- I sometimes remember all the bad things about him/annoying habits/tendencies/immaturely that I dont have to deal with anymore,knowing that hes someones elses problem now does make me feel better.

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Registered: 11-10-2009
In reply to: dm2006
Tue, 12-22-2009 - 9:25am

Not bad to remember the bad...those are the things that would have crept in later and the same ending would have occurred. At least someone else has to deal with that now and not you. You can move on and rock on!!


Take care


Hope