I need a little encouragement
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I need a little encouragement
| Tue, 01-20-2004 - 6:21am |
I woke up this morning, with a feeling in my stomach that I just don't like. I'm missing XMM pretty bad. It's been only 6 days since we last spoke and our affair FINALLY ended. (I had tried so many times before to get him to go, but he didn't or wouldn't). In the past,after a break up, by now we would be talking again.
This time maybe it is really over. I had a weak moment and dialed his cell phone, lucky for me the phone was off, but I got a sick feeling in my stomach hearing the message.
I know I don't need this in my life anymore. I'm married and after riding that wild roller coaster of emotion, made the decision that, this is where I needed to be.
Why am I doing this to myself? I just wish my heart would hurry and catch up with my head and I can really feel inside like I did the right thing by getting out.
I know I'll be okay. Now and in the long run. Thanks for listening! Have a good day!

Iknowitstime
(and so do you)
Hugs,
careful
Karry
Karry - - who is learning to embrace life on her own raising her miracle, Carley Paige
I knew I didn't want an affair anymore or ever again so to protect myself, I made myself stay away -- no calls, emails, no drive-bys, no walk through his neighborhood, no going to restaurants we frequented, no "nothing." When he attempted to contact me, I completely rejected his overtures. He showed up at my house once late at night and I told him I'd call the police if ever did it again.
In time it got easier, honestly though he still sort of haunted my head until at least 6 mos. after NC began and it's only in the last few mos. that I feel nothing, zippo.
You'll get there -- just stay busy. So busy you barely have time to think until you lay your head on the pillow. by then, you're so exhausted you conk right out!
Good luck!!
Take care and thanks again :)