I need your support!

iVillage Member
Registered: 09-22-2004
I need your support!
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Wed, 09-22-2004 - 3:37pm
I have never posted anything before on the internet, and its hard to believe that this is the first. I am married, and have had a relationship with a MM for almost 3 years. I have no children, he has a 5 year old and a 2 year old. Things have been bad between us for awhile now (several months). We pretty much finalized the breakup yesterday with a huge heated fight. I know the relationship had to end, but I am feeling so much pain that I don't know what to do. I would do anything to talk to him right now. I am thinking of stupid things to call him about. Things that don't matter, but I want to hear his voice. I am married to a wonderful man who would do absolutely anything for me. I have no idea why I started this, and I feel terrible for doing so. I hope I am at the bottom now, because I can't stand the thought of feeling worse than I do. No one I know knows about the affair so I have no one to talk to. I guess I knew coming into this that when it ended, it was going to hurt, but I didn't expect it to hurt this much. I need someone, anyone, to tell me that I am doing the right thing. I know I can go and see him tonight if I wanted, whether he wants to see me or not I don't know...I don't want to give in. I need to make my marriage stronger. He would never leave his wife for me and I would never leave my husband....it has to end. Sound like I am still trying to convince myself?

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Registered: 08-04-2004
Thu, 09-23-2004 - 10:34am
In small towns there is always that chance. I know that feeling. It used to happen to me in the post office. Now I go at night, when I know he's home with SO. I've also changed route home and times. If possible try to rearrange your schedule till you can get some control on the wild ride your on.

XOM is in emergency services so he pops up just like your X.

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