I really need to vent, hurting today

iVillage Member
Registered: 03-26-2003
I really need to vent, hurting today
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Fri, 02-13-2004 - 10:24am
For once I thought I was going to escape the "Valentine's Day Blues". For as long as I can remember I've to feel special on this day set aside for lovers. Not once have I ever had anyone send me flowers on Valentine's Day. I sit year after year and watch my co-workers receive beautiful floral arrangements.

Today, I'm so angry with MM. Angry, because he let our relationship get to a point where there is nothing to build on, no place to go. It's over......

Angry, for his lies, the deception, the hurt that he has caused me.

I watch Oprah daily, today the topic is "The Worst Mistake of My Life". The worst mistake of my life is the day I started this A with a MM 17 years ago. It has been a horrible part of my life for 17 years. One of my girlfriends that I confided in about this A, told me that one day I was going to look up and 10 years of my life would have be gone, and I would still have nothing to show for it. Guess what she was right.

The hurt and pain I feel today at time are almost unbareable.

Thanks for listening........

iVillage Member
Registered: 12-08-2003
Fri, 02-13-2004 - 11:50am
I am so sorry you are having such a bad day but I am glad you came here to vent. You know that this is the maybe one place in the world where there are people who TRULY understand your feelings. It's a hurt that only us who have been there understand and we are here for you! Personally, I am beginning to hate Valentine's Day, another Hallmark created, over commercialized holiday! Why don't you treat yourself special and buy a beautiful bouquet of roses for yourself? Or buy a surprise bouquet for someone that you know is lonely. There are many lonely people out there. Just some ideas. Take care and I'll be thinking of you.

Stay strong!
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Registered: 11-19-2003
Fri, 02-13-2004 - 12:55pm
OKAY secretluver (and anyone else that's sad over Valentine's Day) Look at it for what it truly is:

1 - As careful2 pointed out, it's just another Hallmark created holiday to boost their business!

2 - It's a holiday that floral shops have jumped on the bandwagon of promoting because yes, they too boost their business sales!

3 - Oh, and let's not forget the chocolate manufacturers, Victoria Secret stores, the department stores and heck, even the spa's and restaurants!

The truth is... it's a day that just like ALL the other 364 days, it only lasts for 24 hours! But more importantly, even though it's nice, life is NOT about what other's do for us! We should all do something nice for ourselves because attitude is only a frame of mind.

Wishing each and every one of you a Very Happy and peaceful SATURDAY and a GREAT Weekend!




Edited 2/15/2004 12:05:49 AM ET by caring4me