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I received a package from him today
| Wed, 03-03-2004 - 11:18am |
OK guys, I'm afraid he's going to make this NC thing extremely difficult for me. This morning I received a package from him. Its a little stuffed animal - the type of animal has very significant meaning between the two of us. UGH! Now I've got this adorable little guy sitting on my desk and every time I look at it it reminds me of him. I just responded to secretluver's post saying that it would only be good manners to call him to acknowledge the gift, right???? Not in this circumstance I'm afraid. It goes against my nature not to thank him but I know its not the right thing. If I get on the phone with him he'll have my attention and resume pleading with me not to end this relationship and I'm in no way strong enough for that. I feel horribly guilty about this all. I think I'm going to give this little stuffed animal to my secretary for safekeeping and try to get on with my day. Thanks for listening! Love, Maureen.


Stay strong. We've all been there, but you can do it. Just remember why you broke it off. Surely a stuffed animal isn't really going to change your mind, even if it is really cute!
Hang in there.
Big hugs....this is the hardest part of letting go....LETTING GO! (lol) Just recently I had to contact exMM for some legal advice...since he is an attorney, and there was NO ONE else for me to go to for this particular legal advice (hint: the "other" board) I asked him some lengthy questions via email. This after 'ending' it officially on 2/4 and he agreeing to it. (we hadn't seen each other since 1/3/04 and I spent the month debating whether to end it, then finally did). To make a long story short (or in my case...LONGER...ha, ha) he answered my email, exactly what I needed to know, nothing more then a "good luck" at the end. I *thought* very much of sending a 'thank you' email back...BUT then I would begin to obsess again and get myself on a bad thought pattern. I know he knows that I am appreciative of his help...but at some point we must make the decision WITHIN us to say "nope, just not doing it". As time goes on, you will find that you begin to view the relationship much differently. I know I have only after 1 month...I can't imagine how I'll view it 3 months from now, 6 mo, 1 year. I'm sure it will be much different.
It does get easier with time, but that doesn't take all the hurt away....that only comes with time, work, and honesty with ourselves.
Get the bear, toss it in the closet and pull it out for a day when you are stronger and can handle it. I know my exMM gave me a book and a couple of meditation tapes that are wonderful...but when I try to use them, I think of him....so I will use them another day, when the feelings are not so strong...and maybe by that time they'll be dry-rotted or something...lol. DO NOT CALL HIM....you even said, that will give him a reason to plea for your return.
Stay strong...we got yer back....
dharma
I'm new at this, but if I can help in any way. I'm here.
(((((((HUGS))))))))
Secret.
Jazzdiva