I relapsed - he called me yesterday, need you to yank me out of this.
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I relapsed - he called me yesterday, need you to yank me out of this.
| Sat, 11-20-2010 - 3:16am |
Day 3 of NC and he called,
| Sat, 11-20-2010 - 3:16am |
Day 3 of NC and he called,
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Thank you so much for your time and clarifying it all, i need this, i need a kick up the a$$, i need to be reminded that 'affairland' is 'la la land', i need to register in my fuzzy head that NC= No New Hurts. I need to be told that i am not invincible, my God i read up on No Compromise's ordeal over the weekend and i am still shaking. You are helping me considerably. Love, hugs and blessings to you.
Our situation is SO similar it is uncanny, sounds like we are married to the same man and having an A with the same man. As you say, filling our void of loneliness at the cost of affecting ALL those lives is JUST NOT WORTH IT in no way, shape or form. I'm so disgusted in myself for doing this to my H and family, and to EAP's family. Even if i don't have a dday i will forever live with the guilt of the gravity of exactly what i have done here in the pursuit to satisfy my SELFISH, quick fix needs, which at the end of the day weren't really met. FL I'm so glad you are here (not glad that you are in the situation that you are in) but glad you are willing to share your similar experience with me. Love, Hugs and Blessings to you.
He got through to me again today, i told him that we couldn't be friends and that we need to accept the fact that what we have done was WRONG, and we can't go on anymore. He said he cant bare the thought of never seeing me again, i asked him whether he realises how lucky he is that his wife is giving him another chance, reminded him of the high risk of getting caught now, and emphasised the fact that getting caught the next time around he would lose everything. Yes we love each other and care for each other, but that is not enough, there is so much at stake here, if we truly want to be together we will be together OFFICIALLY, that's the only way and the right way. I told him today is the last day we will have contact, he understands/agrees everything i have said but still wants to see me despite the risks, he thinks about me all day everyday (so do i, but i did not tell him), he is going overseas for a month with his family and will be in touch with me when he returns. He is hoping i change my mind, he would not listen to what i had to say,
Vanessa,
I hope yesterday was truly the last contact you will have with him.
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