I saw him

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Registered: 07-20-2010
I saw him
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Sun, 08-29-2010 - 5:59pm
I saw xap this past Tuesday afternoon. I was in the supermarket(where he gave me his number) and he was also there. His daughter was with him. I didn't approach him. When I walked by he was in the checkout lane and turned and smiled and said hi. I did the same. Then when I was in the check out lane he was leaving and looked back and waved bye. My heart is breaking all over again. I couldn't believe I was looking at the man who said all those things to me and he just treated me like a casual acquaintance. I really hoped him seeing me would prompt him to do the right thing and contact me and give me an explanation. It didn't. And I am right back to going over and over why he did what he did. I think I am even lower than I was right after he disappeared. I cry off and on all day. I have been busy with the kids sports games, but I will be at a game and have to go to the restroom and cry. This really is driving me crazy. I don't know how to get over this.

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Registered: 07-20-2010
In reply to: willow09
Fri, 09-03-2010 - 11:01am

I get it, it is raw pain. You are right it just blows me away because he seemed so sensitive to my feelings. If he ever thought he offended me or hurt me in anyway he would freak out. It blows my mind that this is the same person who was madly in love with me one day and just gone the next without a word.

I agree with you. I think we will be the ones to win in this situation. Because we are trying to understand what happened,experiencing the pain, trying to improve ourselves and understand ourselves. And while I can't be sure, my guess is they are just putting their head in the sand, pretending we never existed, not trying to find out what makes them capable of treating another person(not just a person but someone they said they loved) in this way. And my guess is they will do it again. Anyway I am rambling also but we have to try to go with the positives, which are hard to see at this point. But hey at least when I smiled and waved back I would like to think he saw that I really did care. And maybe that night he suffered a bout of insomnia (he suffered with that some) brought on by his conscience.(I know I'm being a little catty here:) Also, he always talked about a certain way I would smile sometimes and how cute he thought it was, and how he would think about it during the day. Well I made sure to give him that smile that day. hehe

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