I think I'm psychic...or is it psychotic

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I think I'm psychic...or is it psychotic
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Fri, 05-14-2004 - 12:05pm
I think I have posted that I have been having constant dreams of OM. The dreams occur almost every night. They are vivid and intense. During the day I can barely picture his face (I'll never forget that body...lol..just kidding) or remember the sound of his voice, but at night during those dreams it is like he never left me. Well I recently unblocked those people that were blocked on my e-mail. I really didn't think much about it. OM and I haven't talked in over 7 months. Last I heard he despised me and that was that. Well come wednesday, what do I get but an e-mail from him. He thinks about me and "us" everyday. He can't move past it. Well he e-mails me today that he and five "guy" friends are going on a cruise and he will be gone next week. He will get ahold of me when he gets back and we need to make a decision about what we want. I will be the first to say that I loved him. I was all consumed by him. I could invision a future with the person he was in the beginning. I have prayed for answers about what to do with my life and my marriage specifically. My husband has no interest in me physically, we are like close roomates when he isn't lying to me about something. I am moving in to my apartment in a week and I don't think I want my H to come with me. Divorce really frightens me, but I am so much more afraid of feeling or not feeling I should say, like this forever. There has to be a reason for what is going on now....between my moving and OM and things. I just have to figure it out!!!

Karry

Karry - - who is learning to embrace life on her own raising her miracle, Carley Paige

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Fri, 05-14-2004 - 12:43pm
Wow!

Karry, here's what I would do if I were you. I would move into the apartment by yourself. It sounds like you really don't want to continue on with your marriage. I would experience some time away from husband and see how that feels and try to come to some conclusion about the future - as far as your husband and you go.

As for OM, you could certainly tell him what you are doing, but I would not have any relationship with him while he is still married (or was he single - can't recall). Anyway, if he is married I would not accept him into your life till he is at least separated.

Put yourself first and it will work out.

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Wed, 05-19-2004 - 9:09am
Thanks Crystal. I have had several days to get over the shock of hearing from om and I'm not going to make any more out of it. If I hear from him I am going to try and be polite and friendly but there is so much ugliness between us I can't imagine us ever having a normal relationship. Supposedly OM is single and he made my life a living hell because I didn't run out and get divorced. I understand completely where he is coming from, but there were so many signs there that he too was either married or in a serious relationship (my mom says he is married, she would know having fallen for a married man (my father) who swore he was single and for once I should listen to my mom. If I would've listened to her years ago I wouldn't have wound up in a dead end marriage!!)

Anyways, thanks for you support Crystal!! I hope you are doing well!!

Hugs,

Karry

Karry - - who is learning to embrace life on her own raising her miracle, Carley Paige