I think I've made it to the other side!!
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I think I've made it to the other side!!
| Sun, 01-03-2010 - 5:20pm |
Hi, all...
Well, in 3 days I will have made it to the 6 week mark of nc (2 if you count from when I broke it for one conversation with my xap-neither of us has tried contact again since then).
I can honestly say I'm feeling better. I thought there might be something seriously wrong with me because I was holding on so tight/not accepting/asking whys over and over and over and even at 5 and a half weeks out still was on that

(((HUGS)))
Hey hard!
OK....I must admit....if I had to have any contact with my xap, I have NO IDEA how I'd react/respond/deal....I don't envy you in that respect....be strong, girl!!!
BUT....not an issue for me! Mine lives 1000 miles away.....YEAH!
I was kind of scared to post again until I had at least a 6 hour stretch where I had the same constant emotion, you know what I mean? :o)
I will be prepared for those bad days....thank you for the heads-up...I suppose I'd be asking for the moon if I assumed that I was 100% over it, but wow, I've been feeling really good these last 2 days! I'm sooooo much more engaged with my h and sons....I feel so guilty about not being engaged....OK....I won't let my long-winded self go off on a tangent on that at this time :o)
Welcome to the other side!
Hi Free,
Good for you. Hope it continues for you!
I like Clarity's happy dance...very cool!
I'm doing the same thing for you but in my head! Well my hair has a lil static anyway if that counts.
Big hugs,
E1
Whether you think you can or you think you can’t you are probably right.
A parrot can repeat what it has learned but the mark of true intelligence is applying what is learned.
Whether you think you can or you think you can't you are probably right. A parrot can repeat what it has learned but the mark of true intelligence is applying what is learned.
YAY!!! So happy for you. You have made HUUUGE progress. Dont give up! 1 thing that keeps me from making that Contact is do I want to start from day 1 all over again? H*ll NO! You have come so far to go back to day 1.
sending you lots of HUGS!
--Shawn Alexander
Honey, it only gets better from here. Time does heal all wounds, as cliche' as that statement is. You sound strong and determined to keep pushing forward and yes, there will be temporary setbacks once in a while, but as long as you sit with those feelings for a few minutes and not push them away, you will condition your mind to not even want to go there anymore.
((Hugs))
~ Iddy~
~Iddy~