It's not easy to tell someone you don't want contact with them, telling them to leave you alone. That's why it hurts. You are a good and kind person. You probably haven't had to do something like this very often in your life. You feel like you just rejected someone you love. It's hard to be "mean" to someone. It hurts. And it's normal for you to feel this way. When I told my XAP goodbye I thought I was going to die. I felt like I'd been stabbed in the chest. I cried for a solid hour after I did it. I didn't feel free for several days. I was so sad. I cried off and on for a week. Then the "free" feeling came. I realized I was no longer sneaking away to check my cell phone or to make a call. No more lying. No more taking time away from my H, my friends, etc. to be with him. I could go on and on. Now your job is to maintain LC. It is YOUR job, because he could try to break LC at any time. You need to be prepared for that, because when it happens it catches you totally off guard. We will help you stay strong. We will get you through this. If you feel tempted to break LC, come to the board first. I'm so sorry you're going through this. It hurts, but you will feel better day by day. I am thinking about you!
Now your job is to maintain LC. It is YOUR job, because he could try to break LC at any time. You need to be prepared for that, because when it happens it catches you totally off guard. We will help you stay strong. We will get you through this. If you feel tempted to break LC, come to the board first.
I'm so sorry you're going through this. It hurts, but you will feel better day by day. I am thinking about you!
You did it!!!! YAY!!!!
IMEP,
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~Iddy~
Thank you for the kind messages.