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| Sun, 10-24-2004 - 12:51pm |
Just ended a nearly 1-year old A with a guy who is unmarried but living with someone for nearly 15 years. I am married for 16 with no children.
We mutually agreed to end it to both "figure out our lives" with the goal of coming together again one day. We agreed to meet in the new year to discuss where we are both at and how we are feeling. We've tried this twice before, but this time his resolve is different. It is stronger. I know it.
Well, it has been 6 days since we ended and 4 days of no contact. I am deeply depressed and have no interest in anything else. I have been successful at not calling this weekend because I cannot reach him on weekends, however, I have dialed his office repeatedly and listened to his voicemail, but thankfully have not yet caved and left a message. Monday will be the real challenge.
I will have the opportunity to reach him at work. I feel so desperate and right now feel as if I will make that call. Please help.
Thanks,
IslandGirl

As I commented in your other post, you're going through withdrawal if your addiction. It's normal.
And it's your choice: active addict or recovering addict. Make the call and you're an active addict. Keep the NC and you are a recovering addict. With recovery you gain clarity. With active addiction you remain muddled.
What is your choice?
Whatever you choose, accept total responsibility for your choice and its consequences.
cl-nre