I want my NC back--please please help me
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I want my NC back--please please help me
| Fri, 01-21-2005 - 4:20pm |
I want my NC back. Why can't I get it back. It was so peaceful and I had nothing to hide. I had honor and self respect. I walked with God. I was getting my dignity and self esteem back. I was loving and forgiving myself. I was getting stronger and I could function in my life again. I was living in my real life more and not in a fantasy world in my head. Please God I want my NC back.
Survive

What happened????I'm into day 6 now of NC so I feel like "Superwoman"!
rita
This is my first time at real NC since my A ended on Sun but it has been 5 days today. I can't say it gets easier. Today was actually a not so great day . I barely look for my cell anymore and don't bother checking eamil. Just start tomorrow and go day by day!
Good luck
Well I had four days of contact with xMM and saw him twice. No sex. I think that I can get my NC now and this is why. After 4 days of him saying some things that made me think he could get a D now--he went back to the MAJOR FENCE SITTING telling me all his fears for his kids, not being able to take communion, losing his money etc. etc. and he sounded EXACTLY THE SAME as he did 15 months ago when the A ended. The chemistry and closeness between us was also EXACTLY THE SAME which was the hard part. But--I am really thankful that he showed me his insecurities and inablility to choose either me or his M completely because then I can move on. He even said he didn't want to hold me back, he wants me to be happy and not be exposed to his continual flip flop.
Hope this helps someone else have a reason for NC.
Laura