I wasn't ready for it to end...trying to come to terms with it
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|Mon, 08-06-2012 - 11:08am|
To answer the question, I simply wasn't ready for it to end. Prior to the last week, we were both pretty comfortable with how things were going. It had been quite awhile since any issues came up that caused either of us problems. I guess that explains why when I would try to end it, I would go back so easily. I'm still waiting for him to come back.
I know all the things I should be doing but it's difficult after having this a part of my life for 13 years. I saw him through so much with his first wife, and even with the second wife. Makes me so angry to think of all the time wasted. And then for him to blame it all on me and making me feel like I did something wrong.
So, I'm trying to keep my days and nights busy and full with other things. I haven't sent any messages to him for two days, so I guess that's a step in the right direction.
If this is the right thing to do, then why does it hurt so bad?