I wobbled and tripped

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Registered: 04-01-2010
I wobbled and tripped
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Sun, 12-19-2010 - 12:47pm

As most of you know, I have really been struggling. T is helping me discover a whole lot about my messed up self. I had a T session on Thursday and I was about as far down in the dumps as I could be. I just sobbed and sobbed, trying to figure out why I feel I am so unlovable, which is one of the cruxes of my problems.

I do so much for others, I appear so strong and independent, I am the woman with brass ovaries. I read people well and mold myself to situations.

Oct. 12, 2010 -- began my personal search and rescue mission.

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Registered: 04-01-2010
Mon, 12-20-2010 - 6:41am

Thank you all so much for your words of encouragement, ladies.

Oct. 12, 2010 -- began my personal search and rescue mission.
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Registered: 03-08-2009
Mon, 12-20-2010 - 9:55am
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Registered: 11-10-2010
Mon, 12-20-2010 - 10:20am

always,

Just wanted to tell you that you are loved.

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Registered: 04-01-2010
Mon, 12-20-2010 - 11:41am

You guys are the best. You've all really and truly lifted my spirits even further. I am feeling special and I am feeling loved and I'm feeling it from all the right peeps. :smileywink:

Had a wonderful T session this morning. I am making positive breakthroughs. I am narrowing my focus on some specific issues and can see where my warped thinking began and am discovering new ways to look at certain situations. I feel amazing today. Of course, I realize I may hit some low points again. Likely, I will. With each setback comes greater strength, though. At least, that's how I process things. ... My brother, on the other hand, could simply listen to the lecture I got for doing something wrong and he would never repeat the behavior himself. Why oh why couldn't I have been more simple minded and obedient?? Why am I driven to test the limits? For whatever reason, this little girl was not made of much sugar and instead,

Oct. 12, 2010 -- began my personal search and rescue mission.
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Registered: 11-22-2009
Mon, 12-20-2010 - 1:00pm
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Good the hear, Alwayst. Therapy is going to be the best gift you have ever given yourself, (other than your babies ;-),

I am all for you putting last week's boundary breaking boo-boo to rest and moving fwd from here. It's apparent that the gals here love you lots, so I will follow suit with hopes that there will be no more wobbles that could lead to loss of credibility. Many posters are looking up to you right now and that places you in a position of responsibility, KWIM? (Nothing like a little pressure to help you stay out of trouble, eh? ;-)

((Hugs))
Be where you are; otherwise you will miss your life. ~ Buddha
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Mon, 12-20-2010 - 7:49pm
(((Iddy)))
I only have a few minutes until my guests arrive and all chaos breaks loose, but I wanted to thank you for your faith in me. It touches me deeply to know my little messed up self is helping others. It would have been real easy to keep my faux pas a secret here but I want to keep it real for me and everyone else. I have gained enormous new foiund strength as a result if this incident and promise to work even harder at keeping myself in check and on the right path.
Much, much love to you all.
Oct. 12, 2010 -- began my personal search and rescue mission.
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Registered: 10-17-2010
Mon, 12-20-2010 - 9:37pm

((((((ALWAYST))))))))),

I give you credit for coming here and being honest.

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