if Bodhi can do it
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| Sun, 08-01-2010 - 11:51am |
Hopefully I'm not becoming Sybil here, but sometimes I feel like "if Bodhi can do it, so can I". During my A, I wanted XAP to take care of me, to "fix" me. I know now that he can't do that. He has is own life to figure out. So Bodhi is taking care of me with the help of all of you. As I continue to clean up the mess of my life, I can't tell you how much this board has helped me. I am accountable to all of you. By not letting you down, I'm not letting myself down. As Bodhi, I want to help others with what I've been through. When I go back and read what I've written, it seems that Bodhi is strong. She's on the right path. When I feel weak, log in with my moniker and all of you help me. "Bodhi" didn't exist until I met all of you. I'm sure glad she does now. :)
So when you feel like "you" can't make it through another minute, turn to your EAS "self" - get strength from her (or him). Even when you aren't here posting. Let that stronger version of yourself take care of you. This might sound silly, but I picture Bodhi as a real person, holding my hand sometimes.
Bodhi

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Absolutely! Like attending AA meetings, coming here daily for support even if all one is doing is reading, will eventually get us from point A (affair) to point Z (zapped). ;-) We have to want a better life for ourselves, and we have to make the choice to take that first initial step which is wanting it over.
(((Hugs)))
~Iddy~
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