I'm back. Please help.

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Registered: 10-01-2009
I'm back. Please help.
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Mon, 10-19-2009 - 6:55pm

Hi everyone. I posted once last week. I am struggling to end this with my xap. He is the one who mainly wanted to end it, but we have waffled back and forth.

It's only been going on for 3 months, and we haven't had sex or anything, except cuddling and kissing. Text messages were how we mainly talked. He and his wife are good friends of my husband and I and we hang out almost every weekend.

Today, we both ended it AGAIN over text message. I told him that I had feelings for him and that I could've loved him. But that I also know that it has to end.

I am just really really sad. I know it was wrong, please don't bash me. It's just that my husband and I have been struggling so bad for so long and I have been so neglected in my marriage. This guy was great to me, and in many ways I do not wish it was over.

I told him I would not text him anymore. Tomorrow will be NC day 1 again, and it is going to kill me. I know I have to avoid him on the weekends too, but it is so hard. Please please, anyone. Help. I'm drowning.

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iVillage Member
Registered: 10-01-2009
Tue, 10-20-2009 - 6:13pm

band, thanks again for your reply :)

It is 5 pm. I have not contacted him, so I am proud of myself. The afternoon was the hardest. Evening is easier, because we never text in the evening anyway. I'm happy that I didn't contact him.

Tomorrow will be hard again, but I hope I can keep this up. I'll keep posting here, it helps alot.

This weekend is going to be a challenge. We always hang out with them. I'm freaking out about it. I know I'm gonna be tempted to see him. But, I don't think I can stomach it, especially seeing him with his W.

iVillage Member
Registered: 08-06-2007
Tue, 10-20-2009 - 7:48pm

See, you did it!! Yay! One day down...... Just keep it up, hour by hour.


Seriously, try to find something else to do this weekend. Change your routine, you don't have to do anything you don't want to. Why waste time that could be much more productive?

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Registered: 08-31-2008
Tue, 10-20-2009 - 8:45pm

Hey!


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