I'm confusing myself
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| Fri, 07-02-2004 - 1:08pm |
Hi All,
Wondered if anyone can relate to this one?
About a month ago, I started to get feelings that my MM has other W
he may be doing this with. (Well, I guess I've always wondered). And
I can't judge him for that, but it's not for me. I can't be one of many.
Anyway, I got over the feelings, and wanted to be with him again. We were together (we've never had sex, just intimate in other ways; mostly kisses). I was feeling fine.
Then about a week later, I had a bad mammogram. Those 2 days of waiting, not knowing
or not if it was going to be serious were the scariest of my life. I told myself this
was a wake up call to end it; it scared me that much.
After I found out it was nothing, I was again craving this man. I haven't see him for over 2 weeks now. We tried to get together, but our schedules keep clashing. Again,
I'm thinking this is a sign. (I even told him that yesterday).
Anyway, he keeps wanting to get together (to mess around) but I am just not feeling that way now. I hate to confuse him - hell, I confuse myself.
Has anyone been here?
I even did a Tarot reading for myself last night. It basically told me
to end it (that was my interpretation). Not seeing him sure makes it easier. We work
together but different floors.
Any advice? I really think I should listen to my gut. I think I've answered my own question. It really helps to get it out and vent. Thanks.

Listen to your Gut it rarely steers you wrong.
Good luck
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