Im so proud of you!!! What a great post and Im so glad that you had a nice weekend and faced triggers head on with success!!
I know that its a huge step in the right direction when we no longer wish away our weekends. Its been the same for me and now I kind of even dread Mondays because I know he could fish some more.
You are doing so well - and I loved reading about your weekend with your family. I remember dreading the weekends as well and longing for Monday to come. I too remember a time when he wished his holidays were longer ... even though he was sharing this with someone else. It was brutal. I would never say things like that to him. He seemed to lack that filter. Anyway - it is amazing, isn't it? To reclaim the weekend. I find now I can't wait for it to come. I try and think of all the amazing things I can plan with the kids and my H. This weekend it will be yard work and BBQing. Last year, this coming weekend(a holiday here in Canada) marked one of the most major trauma's in my RL ... I'll spare you the details but it was a brutal weekend filled with indescribable angst. Well - not this year. While my mind may wander to my xAP, my heart will stay home. I will feel the relief of no more secrets and the joy my life has to offer.
Thank you Alice for the update - and lets keep counting,
This is awesome Alice. Keep it up. With each day you grow stronger. You will have minor emotional setbacks, but they will start coming less and less... I promise.
A big high five to you, Alice!
Alice,
Im so proud of you!!! What a great post and Im so glad that you had a nice weekend and faced triggers head on with success!!
I know that its a huge step in the right direction when we no longer wish away our weekends. Its been the same for me and now I kind of even dread Mondays because I know he could fish some more.
Alice -
Congratulations on getting to 10 days and feeling so good about it!
Hi Alice,
I'm so happy for you.
Dear Alice,
You are doing so well - and I loved reading about your weekend with your family. I remember dreading the weekends as well and longing for Monday to come. I too remember a time when he wished his holidays were longer ... even though he was sharing this with someone else. It was brutal. I would never say things like that to him. He seemed to lack that filter. Anyway - it is amazing, isn't it? To reclaim the weekend. I find now I can't wait for it to come. I try and think of all the amazing things I can plan with the kids and my H. This weekend it will be yard work and BBQing. Last year, this coming weekend(a holiday here in Canada) marked one of the most major trauma's in my RL ... I'll spare you the details but it was a brutal weekend filled with indescribable angst. Well - not this year. While my mind may wander to my xAP, my heart will stay home. I will feel the relief of no more secrets and the joy my life has to offer.
Thank you Alice for the update - and lets keep counting,
TU.
"I can be changed by what happens to me. But I refuse to be reduced by it."
— Maya Angelou
This is awesome Alice. Keep it up. With each day you grow stronger. You will have minor emotional setbacks, but they will start coming less and less... I promise.
Hugs,
NC/LC since January 28, 2010
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