I'm so sad!!!
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I'm so sad!!!
| Tue, 03-01-2005 - 8:52am |
I'm just so upset, i haven't heard a word from him, how is it so easy for him not to write me, i spilled my guts to him and got nothing in return, does he NOT miss me, because I MISS him so much. I wish this had never happeend in my life ever, I wish that I never met him nothing, i wish I could earse it all. When does this all get easier, because personally I'm not sure how long I can handle this. I have children who need there mother and I've been a bad mother too them, i have no patience, when does it all go away! Will I think of him FOREVER?! I can't take it another minute, i just want to FORGET!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
M~
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And FORGET you eventually will. For right now, though, try as hard as you can not to think about whether he misses you. He may well feel as miserable as you do, but that doesn't matter. He may not be acting on his feelings. There comes a time when you make a decision and in order to be true to that decision, you have to make your actions accord with the decision. Whether it was your idea to end the A or his, the decision was made and recovery will be so much easier if you act and think accordingly. Your feelings may not, however, be in accord with the decision. But if you act "as if," as if you want the A over and you want to forget about him forever, eventually you will. I know it's so difficult, but you've got to put the work in and one thing you have to do is keep yourself moving and thinking about other things.
Sorry to hear you've had a setback today - you were feeling so much better. Hang in there! Love, Mo.
Mo is right, You'll drive yourself NUTS if you are thinking about if he's hurting like you are, is he thinking about you does he regret ending it.
Try to work up a little anger on your part and it will help get rid of the hurt. Think about the times maybe he stood you up, or didn't contact you for days at a time. Think about how easily he just let you go, with a lame excuse, no regards to your feelings, no real apology or declaration of how he feels about you but just has to do it.
Its true, whether the decision to end it was yours or his, its been made. You have to respect that and move on. We've all made the mistake of trying to get him back, doing whatever we can, but in the long run, it just won't work. You're better off cutting your losses now. Sorry, it hurts I know, but its all you can do. You can't make him want or love you anymore. Wish we had a magic wand, but we don't.
Dusty
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