I'm So Stupid
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| Thu, 08-05-2004 - 5:14pm |
Then today the other shoe dropped. We were together (we work together) and I thought everything was fine. After all, he approached me (like he has been doing for the last few months -- all about him). Then two seconds later he said, "you were right two weeks ago." He was telling me that I was right when I said we needed to end it. Of course, I couldn't look at him, I just started to cry. Then he told me to stop crying, that we would be better friends. How could I be so stupid???? I knew this would happen and I let my guard down. I let him get to me. I let him inside of me, inside my head; and now I just want to scream.
I told him I didn't want to talk because all he was going to do was say things that made him feel better, and things that would make me feel worse. I don't know what to do except call in sick for a week.
This is what a jerk he is. One minute he's trying to get in my pants. The next minute he's saying we should end things. And the minute after that, he's trying to kiss my tears away. He doesn't like to see me cry. What the $%^& does he think? I'm human. I'm not some stupid machine without any emotions. And just a little background info, we've been involve for 2-1/2 years. So, not only was I stupid today, I've been stupid for a long time.
Someone please help. Tell me that I'm going to be OK and that he is a jerk and I deserve better. I went through all of this pain two weeks ago trying to get up the courage to end things with him, to even try and say the words. Now hearing them said back to me makes me ill. How can he want to be with me and two seconds later, in the middle of things, be saying we should end it???
Tomorrow is Friday...perfect day for a sick day.

If I were in your shoes, I would not call in sick tomorrow or any day in the future. I would face him head on with a very cold shoulder.
Don't start hiding from him because doing so will only stroke his already greatly inflated ego!
I do know that what you're going through hurts....deeply! Right now, you need to be a strong and cold hearted woman to him. Once the dust settles, you will realize that ending this A on *his* or *your* last word won't make a bit of difference. The important thing will be that it did end because once it does, you will regain your sanity and your self worth.
You're worth 200% more then what you are and have been settling for...I know, I've been there!
He does not deserve one more moment of your energy or time. (as my MM did not --and i gave him that for three years..) Don't call in sick. You show him that he is nothing and deserves NO MORE of your precious time..i know it hurts but don't let him create this sadness in you. If things are stale with your husband, maybe this is a sign that you need to work with him to create a better marriage. If it's not something you want, you will have to think on that as well. But don't let this guy drag you down.
The attention is great but,it must end some time right? If your strong enough turn the tables one more time on him, I'm almost certain he will fall back into your pants one last time then drop him like the crap he is. BE SRONG & THE ONE IN CONTROL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
P.S.I usually don't support this kind of thing but, i hate to see any lady being not in control of her own self.Women don't usually fall into this for just sex. Most men know how emotioal women really are and they use that against you to control you.STOP LETTING HIM USE YOU TO HIS OWN ADVANTAGE!!!!!!!!!
lori
Like your name says, you were ready to be overhim. So stick with it.
Don't worry about what he said. You said it first. (LOL)
Instead of calling in sick, start getting your sexiest clothes together and look damn good when you are work. It will make you feel good and well, you know, it will make you feel even better if he sees you looking so great.
Good luck and don't let him win. You were ready to end it so just keep reminding yourself of that.