Im starting to settle down now...

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Registered: 04-02-2003
Im starting to settle down now...
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Wed, 12-29-2004 - 5:12pm

XOM tried to contact me three or four times Sunday , I had purposely shut my phone off because I was such a wreck. I havne't responded. My attitude at this point is "why the big rush?" Is anything going to change between today and next week, next month? I don't feel that sense of "panic" anymore. I feel like if this man truly loved me like he claimed that he did all these years that he will be there for me if and when I decide I would like to talk to him. At this point it is to let go of some of this anger.

I still feel sad but not suicidal...I say that is a big improvement, huh? Christmas really kicked my A$$. I just need to get through new years and I will be better.

Hang in there everyone.

Jazzdiva

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Wed, 12-29-2004 - 5:28pm

Undone,

Glad to hear you're doing better. I was thinking about you...Stay strong!

Luv & Hugs,

Diva

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Wed, 12-29-2004 - 5:32pm

Well driving into NYC today left me no choice but to be strong because only the strong can survive the BQE! LOL....

Seriously Diva, I don't think that this is the end of it as far as talking to XOM. I'm just taking a mental health break and I'm looking forward to telling him how I feel so I don't carry this anger around with me for the rest of my life. I have a long ways to go but I feel better than I did last weekend. It was horrible, and I dont ever want to go to that scary place again!

Jazzdiva