It does get better...
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| Mon, 10-25-2004 - 3:40pm |
I am proud to say he called me today and our conversation lasted exactly 59 seconds. When it became apparent to him that I had nothing to say, he said goodbye. A couple of hours later, he called back, to tell me that if I just never wanted to speak to him ever again, I should let him know, so then he wouldn't bother to call me. I informed him, that had he paid ANY attention to the last email I sent him (two weeks ago) that he'd know that I needed this time of no contact to get past this, and that speaking to him only set me back. But, as usual, when HE had time to talk to me, he called, and he was obviously not happy that I didn't jump with excitement over it. Oh, well.
So, ladies, just know it DOES get better. Listen to everyone here, and stick with the NC. It doesn't have to be forever if you don't want it to be, but give yourself that time. Time to break the habit of him. It gets easier and you will get over him, you really will. I was hopeless, broken and I never thought this day would come. AND, the thing I am most proud of is that, I tried reconnecting with my husband, and it hasn't worked, and he and I have been really having major problems - not ONCE did I run to MM. That, for me, is something I would always do. And I didn't this time. So, now I know, I am getting over him. And I know I can be in control of how things are - not HIM.
Stay strong, everyone! There is a light at the end of the tunnel! I know, as I have just seen it!
Hugs,
NYC

Remember this feeling, bookmark your post and never let that feeling go.
You are strong, you can cope, and you don't need anyone else to do these things for you or give you permission.
You ARE in control of YOURSELF. You're the Captain of your very own ship, hon, and that ship will go exactly where you plot your course.
Wishing you strength & peace,
Posie
YAY NYC!!!!
That is such great news!!! Congratulations, girl...you are on the way!!!!
XOXO
Lily