It feels as if I have somehow GRADUATED!

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It feels as if I have somehow GRADUATED!
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Thu, 05-01-2003 - 11:12pm
I haven't been here in a while because in all honesty, reading some of the posts about your OM/MM used to make me miss and think about xMM.

In another day, I'll be at 11 WEEKS of NC! Funny, I actually had to whip out the calendar to count the weeks! That certainly is progress for me!

GT... if you're reading this, your REALITY post truly made me smile because facing the reality of what was the truth in my relationship and friendship with xMM was the crux of me being able to just keep walking away from what we had or I should say didn't have!

While I was walking away... at times, it was very hard not to look back because there were times that MM was a good friend to me... but he never could be or will be what I want him to be in my life! Once the reality of this sunk in deep enough... the walking became easier. During the past several months, I've stayed busy, developed new interests, have done a lot of reading about my Catholic faith, in an effort to bring myself to feeling at peace spiritually... I feel so much better about myself today then I did 3 months ago... progress is great! It truly does feel as if I've graduated from a horrible nightmare called MM!

Just wanted to post a short update on myself that's turned out to be longer then I planned.

To those of you still going through the indecision of NC and letting go (for good) please know that it can be done but only once you resolve 100% to doing it FOR YOU!

As always, keeping ALL of you in my thoughts and prayers...

Sherry

PS..... CALISTUS, Thank YOU for being my Guardian Angel. I have finally begun to understand... it must have been Easter because there have been times that I know HE has heard me :) God Bless!

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Fri, 05-02-2003 - 1:04am
YOU GO GIRL! Walk tall and hold your head up high!
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Fri, 05-02-2003 - 7:36am
Sherry

THANK YOU for the update. You are doing great and sharing your progress gives hope to those still struggling... I'm so happy for you!

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Fri, 05-02-2003 - 8:41am
I am so very happy for you Sherry. Sometimes I feel like I am almost where you are and then I stop and turn my head and a tear comes to my eye. I miss my friend, he was my best friend for a while but he no longer is the person I thought he was. It is like he is dead and it saddens me to think the person I met and fell in love with is no longer that person. I remind myself to keep walking and moving forward.

your post was an inspiration that I am doing the right thing for myself and I wish the best for you always - thanks for your post.

Lyssa

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Fri, 05-02-2003 - 11:02am
Lyssa...... Very meaningful and important words in your post....

"but he no longer is the person I thought he was"

These same words have echoed in my heart for quite a long time and I won't deny that those same tears haven't been there because they were! But you know that in many ways, it does come down to the reality as IF they are dead because the person we once knew and loved no longer exists... They have moved on with their lives... I won't even comment on how easily xMM accomplished letting ME go because that hurts too much and I refuse to dwell on his reasons because MY goal is to continue accomplishing the same and to NOT allow myself to look back!

YES, you are doing the right thing for yourself and the next time that tear comes, tell yourself that this IS the last one! Once a week goes by *without* any tears, do something special to congratulate yourself!

Keep walking! I enjoy being surrounded by GOOD company :)

Thank you :)

Sherry

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Fri, 05-02-2003 - 11:16am
Thank you Glinda...... There was a time that nobody on this board could have convinced me that I would or could be where I'm at... Heck, I never thought I would or could be where I'm at today! Living in denial of reality kept me in cemented boots that *my* MM was so dang different from thousands of others... Realizing that he's not and coming to terms with the fact that the only way to get rid of the pain was to let him go completely was the only route to gaining back my sanity!

Gosh, it does feel great to be at peace and to know I'm doing the right things in life!

Thank you for your post and as always, wishing you and everyone here a speedy route to peace!

Sherry

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Fri, 05-02-2003 - 11:20am
Thanks SB! Those good girl Catholic morals have come back into focus and being at peace with my inner self does feel great!

Thank you for your encouragement and faith in me :)

Sherry

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Fri, 05-02-2003 - 2:15pm
What wonderful news Sherry! I am so glad for you sweetie! You've been missed but hey, if it works for you, then it was well worth it. And you know, I am also glad that Callistus was able to help you get the answers you needed in your Catholic faith. I know first hand when we hold dearly the things we are taught while we are young only to face such things that fill our lives with crisis, finding true spirituality again is such a blessing! God works in WONDERFUL ways, always seeing that we get what we need.

I know alot about your struggles and I have been praying you would find your way...and you did! What glorious news! I hope you will email me and let me know how things are going for you and what direction you are taking...

Hugs to you sweet friend.

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Fri, 05-02-2003 - 9:18pm
stre2001, you definitely needed that mental break and graduation. I am happy for you. Yes, God does work miracles into our lives. HUGS
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Sat, 05-03-2003 - 9:54pm
God would advise you to tell the xMM's wife of her terrible blunder in committing herself to such a worthless man as she has. In your position (impossible to envision!) I would only feel spiritually at peace with myself to ANY extent, had I made good a little of the sin by doing so - she will find out eventually what he is, and the later that happens, the worse it will be. Sure, I never like being the bearer of bad news, but to keep the matter dark only supports the adulterer's evil deeds.

Not prescribing any course of action, just making an observation.

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Sun, 05-04-2003 - 1:14am
Thanks for your interesting *observation* ibasher...........

BUT, it's obvious to me that God MUST have other plans for me, MM and his WIFE!

BTW, since you said my position is impossible for you to envision, I take it you're a betrayed spouse? If you are, I'm sorry.

As for feeling spiritually at peace with myself... sorry, but in my book, *making good a little of the sin* by taking revenge actions against xMM or his wife is NOT the route I'm choosing... IF she does find out eventually (as you say) it will be of her own doing and that of *her* Higher Power.

I'm only capable of working on and changing myself :)

Sherry

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