It feels as if I have somehow GRADUATED!
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| Thu, 05-01-2003 - 11:12pm |
In another day, I'll be at 11 WEEKS of NC! Funny, I actually had to whip out the calendar to count the weeks! That certainly is progress for me!
GT... if you're reading this, your REALITY post truly made me smile because facing the reality of what was the truth in my relationship and friendship with xMM was the crux of me being able to just keep walking away from what we had or I should say didn't have!
While I was walking away... at times, it was very hard not to look back because there were times that MM was a good friend to me... but he never could be or will be what I want him to be in my life! Once the reality of this sunk in deep enough... the walking became easier. During the past several months, I've stayed busy, developed new interests, have done a lot of reading about my Catholic faith, in an effort to bring myself to feeling at peace spiritually... I feel so much better about myself today then I did 3 months ago... progress is great! It truly does feel as if I've graduated from a horrible nightmare called MM!
Just wanted to post a short update on myself that's turned out to be longer then I planned.
To those of you still going through the indecision of NC and letting go (for good) please know that it can be done but only once you resolve 100% to doing it FOR YOU!
As always, keeping ALL of you in my thoughts and prayers...
Sherry
PS..... CALISTUS, Thank YOU for being my Guardian Angel. I have finally begun to understand... it must have been Easter because there have been times that I know HE has heard me :) God Bless!
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THANK YOU for the update. You are doing great and sharing your progress gives hope to those still struggling... I'm so happy for you!
Glinda
your post was an inspiration that I am doing the right thing for myself and I wish the best for you always - thanks for your post.
Lyssa
"but he no longer is the person I thought he was"
These same words have echoed in my heart for quite a long time and I won't deny that those same tears haven't been there because they were! But you know that in many ways, it does come down to the reality as IF they are dead because the person we once knew and loved no longer exists... They have moved on with their lives... I won't even comment on how easily xMM accomplished letting ME go because that hurts too much and I refuse to dwell on his reasons because MY goal is to continue accomplishing the same and to NOT allow myself to look back!
YES, you are doing the right thing for yourself and the next time that tear comes, tell yourself that this IS the last one! Once a week goes by *without* any tears, do something special to congratulate yourself!
Keep walking! I enjoy being surrounded by GOOD company :)
Thank you :)
Sherry
Gosh, it does feel great to be at peace and to know I'm doing the right things in life!
Thank you for your post and as always, wishing you and everyone here a speedy route to peace!
Sherry
Thank you for your encouragement and faith in me :)
Sherry
I know alot about your struggles and I have been praying you would find your way...and you did! What glorious news! I hope you will email me and let me know how things are going for you and what direction you are taking...
Hugs to you sweet friend.
GT
Not prescribing any course of action, just making an observation.
BUT, it's obvious to me that God MUST have other plans for me, MM and his WIFE!
BTW, since you said my position is impossible for you to envision, I take it you're a betrayed spouse? If you are, I'm sorry.
As for feeling spiritually at peace with myself... sorry, but in my book, *making good a little of the sin* by taking revenge actions against xMM or his wife is NOT the route I'm choosing... IF she does find out eventually (as you say) it will be of her own doing and that of *her* Higher Power.
I'm only capable of working on and changing myself :)
Sherry
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