It hurts

iVillage Member
Registered: 11-10-2010
It hurts
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Tue, 01-04-2011 - 10:13pm

I guess I got triggered tonight.

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iVillage Member
Registered: 11-10-2010
In reply to: unbreakme
Wed, 01-05-2011 - 9:52am

TU, Bodhi, Jen, islove, foggy, Iddy, alwayst....EVERYONE...thank you.

I did go to sleep after the bath and today I am less raw and more peaceful.

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Registered: 11-22-2009
In reply to: unbreakme
Wed, 01-05-2011 - 10:10am
((UBM))

What a lovely response to all of us. You will never have to be alone in your pain again if you trust in those that have come before you.

We all understand the fear of the unknown, the darkness that can sometimes feel like we are being swallowed up whole, the intensity of those emotional waves that wash over us, and the exhaustion that comes from battling all of these things.

I know this cliche' can at times be an eye-roller, but it is so true: "It is always darkest before the dawn." If taken in the literal sense, your darkness was felt last night, yet now today, you are already feeling less raw and more at peace. In time, this will be more forthcoming.

Thanks for checking in this morning. I am sure you have been on many of our minds since you reached out last night. I am sorry I wasn't there for you last night, but know that I am always here for you in spirit, no matter what time of the day it is.

(((Hugs)))
Be where you are; otherwise you will miss your life. ~ Buddha
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Registered: 10-17-2010
In reply to: unbreakme
Wed, 01-05-2011 - 11:06am

UBM<
Wanted to chime in but was relieved to see the wave has passed.

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Registered: 06-15-2006
In reply to: unbreakme
Wed, 01-05-2011 - 11:24am

I am so impressed by you.

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Registered: 04-01-2010
In reply to: unbreakme
Wed, 01-05-2011 - 2:47pm

UBM,

Your post brought a tear because I could feel your gratitude, but more so because I can feel your pain and your growth. I think many of us here probably feel unloveable and alone in life, even when surrounded by family and friends. Those are two of my issues.

You are indeed changing. It took enormous strength belief to ride that wave out last night. You deserve and earned every bit of praise and recognition you're getting for it today. I'm sure this episode has given you an

Oct. 12, 2010 -- began my personal search and rescue mission.
iVillage Member
Registered: 11-10-2010
In reply to: unbreakme
Wed, 01-05-2011 - 8:43pm

Thanks again, my EAS friends.

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Registered: 06-17-2010
In reply to: unbreakme
Wed, 01-05-2011 - 8:53pm

Ask and ye shall receive :)

Bodhi

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Registered: 08-25-2010
In reply to: unbreakme
Wed, 01-05-2011 - 9:06pm
Um -
I'm sorry I'm late in chiming in (my plate has been full this week) I just wanted to send you a few cyber hugs and tell you how proud I am of you - this journey is not easy. It IS worth it. You made one of the hardest choices there is and that is to have faith enough to stay true to NC and know that somewhere down the road, the pain will dull, and your wounds, so fresh and raw right now - will be nothing but a memory. So proud of you! Stay strong,
Much love,
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iVillage Member
Registered: 11-10-2010
In reply to: unbreakme
Wed, 01-05-2011 - 10:32pm

Thanks, Lolly!

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Registered: 09-28-2010
In reply to: unbreakme
Wed, 01-05-2011 - 10:34pm
WE are so GLAD YOU ARE HERE UBM

TU.

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