Is it a Pattern?
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Is it a Pattern?
| Mon, 03-15-2004 - 4:17pm |
My XMM told me way back when, that he feared our relationship would "unleash" something in him--i guess meaning that he had been unfaithful with me and that perhaps he would do it again.
I could handle the wife, but now that i think he is chasing after another man's wife--who is associated with the work we do--i am just sick on my stomach. He has gone out of his way--putting our work in jeopardy, in my opinion--and i am backing off, backing off, way backing off and he knows it and i think he knows why.
I am worth so much more than this. My relationship with XMM sent me reeling into depression, helpe my husband fall in love with another woman and has completely left me a mess.
what are your thoughts on cheating as a pattern? What a jerk to say that anyway don't you think? He says so many jerky things.
god, i wish i had never met him, i really do.

I can't say for sure that cheating is a pattern, but having read so many posts, and being the OW myself, I have come to realized that if it's not me, it could have been any other woman.
It just happens to me, because of the right time, the right place. I know that without me, my xMM could have been with another woman. He had just gotten more work that requires him to travel more, sometimes for 2 weeks away from home. I don't know of other changes in his households, but it just happens that we started talking during the time when I myself was insecure too.
I think that usually, men don't know what they want at a certain moment, especially when feelings are involved, except for you know what. I think when he was with you, he practiced self control, but that could have been repressing his own feelings, and now, he decides to act on it?
Just my thoughts...