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It's good to know . . . .
| Tue, 05-03-2005 - 1:50pm |
that I'm not the only MW who's done this. It makes me feel better to know that someone understands my roller coaster emotions with the break up. It's day 2 for me and the silence of my office just makes me think about him all the more. Damn it!
K

Thanks, Mo! I'm sure I'll be fine, it's just really starting to sink in that it's over. Yes, he's called to check in on me . . .to see if I'm ok. I really didn't want to talk to him, and didn't know what to say. It was awkward. I called once to ask him something stupid just to hear his voice. Then felt dumb afterwards even though I kept it brief. He's a nice guy, always has been and I understand completely the ending of the A. I do think he's genuinely concerned he hurt me. I'm sure other MW have said the same. Oh well, I just feel better at least . . venting and all.
Damn . . this silence is deafening! Can somebody give me a radio or something???
K
k,
sometimes the "silence" will give u time to reflect on what u realy want in life, do u realy want to be with that person ?
if the silence is so loud, put on some noise cancelling headphones
:)
max
I can certainly understand, this is now day 2 for me.
Venting here has been really helpful, and I'm trying to stay busy which isn't always easy since I work part time. Luckily my H is out of town until the weekend so I have time to grieve on my own.
What I've done that's been helpful: emailing friends, even friends that I haven't talked to in a while. I've removed all of OM's contact info/emails/everything from my computer. I even turned off the little envelope that shows up on my computer taskbar when I have mail in outlook - how many times I'd look for that when I was waiting to hear from him.
At least I don't have to worry about getting calls from SM, and he knows I'm determined to end this so I don't expect to hear from him by email either. I guess it's easier to deal with when OM is on the other side of the world.
M
Hi Kim,
Glad to hear you're doing ok. I think I am too, I know I need to have the time to grieve and get this out of my system, and it's not going to happen overnight.
Yes, I understand about the relief part and I can certainly understand worrying about your H. I was stuck for a couple of months in an emotional limbo - not knowing whether to keep trying or end it. I'd been wanting to end it this week since my H is out of the country, I have the week to cry and scream and hopefully start to get it out of my system. I was so unfair to my H, many times I was sad about not hearing from OM and my H would be the one that tried to cheer me up.
I realize I've been neglecting friends and family so I've been making a big effort to reconnect. And exercising helps too.
M