It's over. Day 1 anxiety

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Registered: 06-17-2009
It's over. Day 1 anxiety
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Wed, 09-08-2010 - 12:17pm
After weeks, actually months, of endings and beginnings, negotiations and trying to work on the "relationship" problems with my AP, last night was the final straw. I said some things that I'm ashamed of, and he ended it definitively last night. I sent off one last apology for the things I said (mostly about his wife, who I know very well, and his home life) and now NC is in effect.
I feel horrible for hurting him. Not because it's over, but because while fighting for my "rights" in the relationship, I used his relationship with his W against him. I am also married, but he never did that to me.
I'm a bundle of crazy emotions right now. Can someone with experience please try to talk me through this...are my feelings normal?

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Registered: 04-11-2010
Sat, 09-11-2010 - 9:25am

Thanks guys- I really hang out to read EAS every day- a few tmes a day if I can- its literally the only thing making me feel like

You are what you consistently do

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