It's tomorrow

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Registered: 07-20-2004
It's tomorrow
Thu, 11-11-2004 - 8:58pm
And it's been another weird day. I still have no regrets about breaking NC yesterday, and I kept my word and had NC with him today. I still feel very at peace about the whole situation yesterday. But here's the clincher and maybe the reason I'm still ok with it. I brought my sister and I lunch and ate at her office today. While I was there, he called her. I listened to the whole conversation, so I guess that is still a form of me having contact with him, just indirectly. What he told her STILL didn't promise any more or any less hope of us being together but it was nice to hear that he still misses me. (He didn't know I was sitting right there.) He was telling my sister how his W has made a 100% turnaround from the manipulative, mean wife she was before they had their "breakdown". She is now trying very hard to be a nice person and good to him AND their children. But he said that the damage has already been done and no matter how hard she tries, it's still me he's thinking about. He said that not a day has past since our break up that he hasn't missed me. But then he said that he realizes it's only been a week, and he really is trying with her so maybe his feelings will change in time. (Didn't really want to hear that part.) My sister told him how "great" I'm doing and that I'm making real progress moving on. (Thanks sis!)So I guess, just for today, it's enough for me to know that he still cares about me. (He still doesn't understand why I can't talk to him. MEN!) So I'm at peace, but hopefully I don't have a HUGE backslide from all thats happened the past couple days. If so, you can all say "I TOLD YOU SO!!!" I'll keep you posted, and I hope everyone is well today!!