It's......Grrrrrratituesday!
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It's......Grrrrrratituesday!
| Tue, 01-18-2011 - 11:55am |
The purpose in a Gratituesday posting is to take a few moments ONE day a week - to recognize that in the midst of chaos, emotional turmoil, self-doubt - that we each have things to be grateful for.


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Hi,
I am thankful I made it home safely tonight after driving an hour on icy roads.
I am also thankful that i am keeping my NYs resolution to spend more time with my friends who I neglected during my A.
Thanks Lolly for a great opportunity to remind me of all I have to be grateful for.
Today I am grateful for the PAST TENSE (kind of ironic considering Gratituesday is now in the past). I mean while I agree that one of the absolute best benefits of getting out of the fog filled A is the ability to once again be fully present in our lives....There is also so comforting (Freeing?) about being able to speak of some events as having happened in the definitive past. My body is happy for things that I HAD, but no longer have.
Most pertinent to this board is that I am glad that I had an Affair. I know you look at that sentence and it looks like an oximoron...after all Foggy, how can glad and affair ever appear in the same sentence? Well again I say the important word in that sentence is HAD. I am glad I HAD an affair...rather than replacing it with the much worse present tense of action. I know that it can never be undone.....after all its in the past....but that is the comforting part. Its over, done, behind me.
Now if only I could do the same with the guilt, shame, and pain that came along with it. That will have to wait for another week!
So thanks again Lolly for reminding us to focus on what is good for us today...even if those things are not part of today, but stuck were they belong...in the past.
Wishing everyone Peace&light
Foggy
p.s. Good luck in the interview ILE. I hope to next week be grateful that you got the job that you wanted so badly.
1) My friend T---who was here this weekend to physically hold my hand and showed a strength so far beyond her 22 years of age.
2) My friend J---who was my chemical warfare doula. As a gatekeeper for a fragile mind and body she never let an ounce of negative near me when I needed to be protected.
Without them the breaths I take today would not be the same.... they would be shallow and hollow....instead every one is deep and solid.
I'm grateful for :
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