I've fallen off the turnip truck again
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I've fallen off the turnip truck again
| Wed, 03-31-2004 - 4:28pm |
I've posted a couple things on here before, trying to sort out all the confusion. Here's my story in a nutshell. Met a couple about 4 years ago, my H and I got to be good friends with them. The OM and I were extremely drawn to each other, tried to shake it but ended up having an A. He told me that he loved me...I am not so free with my words, scares me to admit the truth. Anyway, not to long afterwards he and his W split up for reasons other than the A. I told him I wouldn't leave my H for someone else. OM and W reconciled...he calls about 6 mos later, I go back. I break it off, then I go back again. I broke it off again...My H and I split up, he called but I wouldn't go back. My H and I get back together and for some reason I call him 6 mos later and we start up again. We have a fun time together, nothing serious. The "L" word isn't mentioned while we are back with H/W. He and His wife split again, for good. He and I get a little more involved. OM wants more, I get scared push away. After Christmas, we start fighting a lot. He admits to wanting to be with me...even loves me but next breath talks about dating. I understand, I can't offer him anything. I will not leave my H again. He starts to pull away..leaving me with the "infamous" void.
He starts to date a girl, won't return my calls or my texts. I get so angry, just want to know that it's all okay. That we're going to be civil when we see one another (small town). I get used to NC then he'll call..casual you know.."can I borrow something." Then NC, finally, I call and leave a message for him to return my stuff. That I don't want anything at all not friendship, not relationship. Basically a kiss my a** message, he knew I was serious...It felt so good! I knew I was done! Then guess what happens? He called the next day and apologized, said it was his fault. That he had started to see himself in a relationship with me...that's what he started to want and knew he couldn't have so the only way he knew to stop that was to have NC. I told him that I understood but he should have told me, I probably would have handled it better. Long story short...I went to see him today. Why doesn't someone just hit me aside the head?
Please help me! I want to stop but can't seem to say no! How do you actually have the strength ?
He starts to date a girl, won't return my calls or my texts. I get so angry, just want to know that it's all okay. That we're going to be civil when we see one another (small town). I get used to NC then he'll call..casual you know.."can I borrow something." Then NC, finally, I call and leave a message for him to return my stuff. That I don't want anything at all not friendship, not relationship. Basically a kiss my a** message, he knew I was serious...It felt so good! I knew I was done! Then guess what happens? He called the next day and apologized, said it was his fault. That he had started to see himself in a relationship with me...that's what he started to want and knew he couldn't have so the only way he knew to stop that was to have NC. I told him that I understood but he should have told me, I probably would have handled it better. Long story short...I went to see him today. Why doesn't someone just hit me aside the head?
Please help me! I want to stop but can't seem to say no! How do you actually have the strength ?

We don't hit you because we don't know were your are or we would.
There is ownly one wat TOTAL NO CONTACT PERIOD nothing else works, remeber all the times he has POed you that can help.