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Jumping on the bandwagon to get my
| Wed, 09-15-2004 - 10:29pm |
tushy kicked. To those who don't know my story I'll make it short. I'm the W my H lives with OW we have 3 kids together talk daily and have sex together still although he lives with her. I promised myself I wouldn't have anymore sexual contact with him until he figures a way out of the mess he's put himself in. I'm also working on issues of my own from alcoholism to childhood abuse. Anyway this morning he stopped by to say hello and visit before going home to get our son ready for school *son lives with dad girls live with me* well we wound up having sexual contact and while it felt great at the time I'm now feeling lousy. Anyway I'm confused and hurting tonight because I don't understand how we can love eachother be in love the whole 9 yards yet are having a hard time getting it together. I know this doesn't make any sense to anyone heck it doesn't make sense to me either and I'm living it. I swear my life has turned into a very bad soap and I want it to be cancelled!
Oh and Free I did sugest he go to counseling because he's made comments that he can't find himself inside anymore and is I believe suffering from major depression probably due to my past behavior to him and losing our kids. He didn't tune me out but he's like I have no time I have to take care of everyone and working nights I have to get some sleep during the day. I wish to He11 that he didn't have to suffer as he is cause he's a great man and it's tearing me up watching him hurt. He won't totally confide in me because as he said this morning "you have enough on your plate." Sorry guys I'm rambling and really going insane I'm sure your spinning by this post so I'll shut up...just give me a good thrashing so I'll be stronger to keep my word to myself.
Oh and Free I did sugest he go to counseling because he's made comments that he can't find himself inside anymore and is I believe suffering from major depression probably due to my past behavior to him and losing our kids. He didn't tune me out but he's like I have no time I have to take care of everyone and working nights I have to get some sleep during the day. I wish to He11 that he didn't have to suffer as he is cause he's a great man and it's tearing me up watching him hurt. He won't totally confide in me because as he said this morning "you have enough on your plate." Sorry guys I'm rambling and really going insane I'm sure your spinning by this post so I'll shut up...just give me a good thrashing so I'll be stronger to keep my word to myself.

"I wish to He11 that he didn't have to suffer as he is cause he's a great man", SAY WHAT HONKY????
Sorry but by definition men are great when they do great things, so how is he great ???
You need to kick his excuse making butt out of your life tell he gets the help he needs, are you going to wait tell he does his creeping move into another womans house they same way he did it to you and is now doing it to her, time to get real.
Sorry but I got a lot to do to night so this is all the time I have for an A$$ whooping, talk to you later
Free