just a big ol' boo hoo party.
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|Wed, 07-25-2012 - 5:00pm|
It's not glamorous and no reservations needed - this week I feel like I've been stretched beyond limits and it's the first time I just want to have everything go back to normal. What is normal anyway? I've been furloughed at work for the past month (ugh) and have been interviewing for a new job because I need to work. wouldn't you know who showed up to interview me? Seriously wanted to throw up for the duration of the interview. And of course I'm still fending off the guy from this past January, including a trip he made to my house. My emotions are low - even with dating mr. new guy (who without starting a whole other convo, I'm realizing can't meet my relationship needs).....I miss having good real life friends who'll kick my arse and keep me accountable. I miss my friendship I had with my exH. There are times I wish for stupid things like going back 5 or 6 years or even further to fix things.....
and yes, I know my emo tanks are low. I know that is why I'm struggling so much. A couple of positives - during my interview xAP at least kept a professional distance and while I know I won't be getting that job - I know now it wasn't because I'm not qualified.
I just want to run away.