Feeling joyus over shame is very positive, hold onto that feeling and work with it. I also think it's great that you realize the happy feelings you had during the A had a tainted feeling to it, it is very freeing to leave the shame behind and live with a clean feeling. I will always remember the lessons I learned through the A path I went down and a big one for me is that feeling of being dirty and shameful. It is a feeling none of us should hold onto :)
Feeling joyus over shame is very positive, hold onto that feeling and work with it. I also think it's great that you realize the happy feelings you had during the A had a tainted feeling to it, it is very freeing to leave the shame behind and live with a clean feeling. I will always remember the lessons I learned through the A path I went down and a big one for me is that feeling of being dirty and shameful. It is a feeling none of us should hold onto :)
HV, hold on to that feeling.