Just saw him
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| Thu, 01-13-2005 - 12:37pm |
I was so close to him. He was at the gas station and I was at the coffee shop right next door. All he had to do was look up and he would've seen me. He didn't. I left. Now I'm shaking uncontrollably. I want to text him so bad just to tell him I saw him. How stupid would that be. I won't do it! But I suddenly miss him again, sooo much! Tomorrow will be one week with NC. No stopping by, but he messaged me yesterday saying, "I know I'm screwing you up when I stop by, so I will stick to the promise I made to you and won't stop anymore. I might still call and leave you messages once in a while to let you know I'm thinking about you if that's ok. If you are ever thinking about me I'd like to hear from you. I love you and miss you. Talk to you sometime!"
I ignored his message, didn't even acknowledge that I got it, which is a huge step for me since I usally cave when he contacts me. I can't do it anymore. But I sure wish I didn't just see him. Makes it so hard!! Thanks for listening. Posting has relieved some of the anxiety I just had take over me.
PAL

MS
A man's got to do what a man's got to do.
A woman must do what he can't.

MSPal
You know girl it's time for you to tell him clearly once and for all not to come around or contact you in anyway and to walk way if he does see you by chance.
REAL HEALTHY UNSELFISH LOVE would say good bye and leave you to heal and get over this, this relationship is nothing but toxic to you.
Free
HI Free,
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REAL HEALTHY UNSELFISH LOVE would say good bye and leave you to heal and get over this, this relationship is nothing but toxic to you.
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I think I'm really starting to "get" that. I don't want to "tell" him that though because I haven't talked to him in a week and I ignored his last message, which I usually don't do. I would like to just keep moving forward with this NC since I'm doing ok with it right now. He hasn't tried to stop by since last Thursday. Hopefully he'll keep his "promise" to me and not stop anymore. It would sure make it easier on me.
I know you probably don't believe me, but I really think I'm ready to let go now. It hurts like hell but I'm not getting anything out of this. I look forward to getting over him and moving on with my life.
Pal
Pal
I believe anything you tell me, you have been pretty up front all along.
Sooner or later he is going to get in your face when he sees you slipping away again, then your going to have that opportunity to flip him the bird.
Free
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Our paths will only cross by pure coincidence, (unless he "tries" to cross) until this summer when we have a common interest and a place we both go on the weekends (along with his W, My x-friend). I hope by then "the bird" is all I want to give him. As for him getting in my face eventually, you're probably right butI think I get stronger every day I have NC with him, so I hope he waits a while to that and I'm strong enough to let him go. (sounds so nice in theory :) )
PAL
Pal
"(sounds so nice in theory :)" Its nicer in fact then Theory, have you read Tcoms post if not you should.
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