Just want to introduce myself....finally!

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Registered: 11-02-2010
Just want to introduce myself....finally!
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Tue, 12-28-2010 - 5:33pm

Hi, I've been reading on this board forever...since about Feb. of this year. I've tried over and over to end my affair. I've tried being his friend but frankly I'm sick of the whole thing. It has been an incredible, emotional drain. I am now 2 days NC and I feel really good about it even though there is still lots of mixed emotions. Mostly I can't believe how risky and selfish I have been for the last 18 months. I still feel like the the other shoes going to drop at any moment and something somehow is going to expose my terrible behavior. That's why I'm here today because I want to be accountable for my actions. I don't want to risk my marriage, my children, or even his family anymore.

I'm not a great writer but I'm here to learn and listen and hopefully contribute. I'm a MW with two children and he was a MM with three children. The affair lasted 18 months on and off. And, my goal is to start the New Year off fresh and with renewed hope.....

Thanks for listening!!

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Registered: 04-23-2010
Wed, 12-29-2010 - 7:48pm

Pick me! Pick me! I want to be the fair-haired boy.

Just kidding.............ALL you nice people.

I am not offended.

Not even the "retreat" talk bothers me. (rolling eyes)

I feel for all of you, and only wish you all the best.

I never take offense because I have been well taught.

Luv you all.

RBM

We only miss what could have been. I know I don't miss what it really was.

iVillage Member
Registered: 12-01-2010
Wed, 12-29-2010 - 8:08pm

Welcome

Love, Sunshine Dedicated to living my new life with integrity, truth and positive thoughts! I am worthy of true love and definitely worth the wait!

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