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| Wed, 04-14-2010 - 2:41pm |
Ladies, just wanted to share this moment as it reminded me of all of us.
I have a student who has been struggling with drugs, cutting, her sexuality, etc. She wrote a journal entry indicating the "whys" of her struggle. It was personal, deep, emotional and quite heart wrenching. The last few paragraphs describe how a teacher saved her life and the one day she was considering ending it...that teacher reached out and will never know the impact of her words, etc.... long story short, she thanked me for helping and for saving her. She went 11 days drug free, and failed on the 12th coming into my class under the influence. She was sent home from school that day crying tears of disappointment, but then thanked me for not judging her failure. There was another attempt at drug free, she failed. She is now on Day 5...and today came and handed me a package she carries with her "in case" she slips. Her lighters, papers, pipe etc. in a nice little purple cosmetics bag. She asks me to take it and dump it. She doesn't want it, need it, she is walking away, and this was a big step.
The parallels are uncanny to me....
She is finding strength the 3rd time around... day 5... getting rid of and avoiding triggers... trying the NC with drugs...
I gathered strength once again in this moment as my words to her sounded much like those you ladies have said to me. Thank You
Wishing you all continued strength...

Amazing Healing, it really is. She came to you for strength just like you came here.
The hold that addictions have on us is a strong one. We cant let go on our own, we need someone to help push us forward, be accountable to and lean on. Your insight into what the A really is, an addiction, shows. You are moving forward and Im very proud of you.
GMLB
Ok, so not much I read here anymore makes me bawl like a baby, but this did it.
You are a _teacher_. omfgosh, a TEACHER. God bless you, my dear!! Here is this student who trusts you enough to share this experience and reach out to you for support.... arg... TEARS!!!! You must totally rock.
This all just goes to prove my long-held believe that even pain can be beautiful. You are in pain but you are healing... you can use this experience to effect the life of a young woman whose course is 100x more challenging than I can comprehend. Your humanity, your suffering, your growth, your experience, your love..... all will shape you and enable you to be an influence (a savior) for all you touch from this point on. God, it's touching. Damn, we should all be soooooo gosh darn thankful that we're given this gift of healing!
Utmost respect and love to you, Healing!
xoxoxo
Dee
Dee...
Wow....what do I say to that??? Thank you from the bottom of my heart. I love my job, it is my passion and what I was meant to do. I mentor so many with such strength and caring and love.... and all I feel like is a HYPOCRITE considering what I feel inside and the lack of strength, dignity, esteem and respect I have had for myself for the past 7 years! Your words brought ME to tears...and I thank you with all my heart.
I will find my way back...it is a struggle everyday...but YOU ALL ROCK! Appreciate your remarks and GMLB...you too...so much!
I believe you are a healer.
I think from our darkest places all of us have offered others
support & kindness, even when we had nothing left to give.
Having worked with substance users most of my career, I can tell you that your generous offering of a safe space to your student may be one of her most important catalysts for change.
Be proud and hold your head up high - today you gave of yourself in ways many others would be incapable and/or unwilling.
My admiration you have,
Jodi
Jodi...
Thank you! Today is another day, and for whatever reason has not started out very strong... needed to read that. Much appreciated. Have a great day.
healing, that is wonderful you have made such an impact in that girls life. i am sure she will remember that forever...
i beleive that everything happens for a reason... maybe you helping her is also her helping you to heal ...
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