Last Chrismas, This Christmas

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Registered: 11-26-2009
Last Chrismas, This Christmas
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Thu, 12-06-2012 - 7:54am

Hi all of you lovely enders out there!

I was just pondering to myself how much I am looking forward to christmas this year, last christmas.... I gave you my heart... opps.... no, last christmas I was

... I was still checking my phone, e-mails and messenger accounts for anything from you - this Chrismas, I have a different e-mail address, a different phone number, a different job - I don't check anything anymore

...I was still shaving my legs and slutting myself up for you every day - this Christmas I don't care, now I wear jeans, trousers or leggings, and am WARM!!!!

...I was still curling my hair everyday for you - this Christmas I adore my straight hair, and have loads more time in the morning to either sleep, or just be with my kids!

...I would drive through snow storms to make it to work just to see if you were there - this Christmas I just work from home and enjoy the fact that I'm not risking my life to see you!

...I didn't see the beauty of winter - this Christmas I am loving the view outside my window, and not caring if I get snowed in with my family for days :-)

...I only thought about when I was going to see you next - this Christmas I think of almost anything else but you!

...I didn't want to go on holidays with my family, because that meant not hearing from you - this Christmas I can't wait to go on christmas holidays, and enjoy the time off with my family!!

...wondering if you would send me a merry christmas message (you never did) - this Chrismas I certainly wont be wondering that this year! You can't get in touch even if you wanted to!

...listening to pathetic excues of why you couldn't meet me.  Ahhh....this Christmas I love it that I won't be feeling like a complete idiot this year

...wondering where you were, when you just dispeared of the planet for a few days, not even saying goodbye - this Christmas....who cares where you are!

... wishing I could be with you.. this Christmas I'm so over that!

WGO

Every recovery is a kind of rebirth
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Registered: 10-22-2001
Thu, 12-06-2012 - 7:59am

Awesome Post!

<3

~hugs~

Way To Go!!!

Nightangel
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Registered: 02-03-2012
Thu, 12-06-2012 - 8:52am

love it!

  The difference between who you are and who you imagine yourself to be, is what you do.

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Registered: 11-04-2012
Thu, 12-06-2012 - 9:17am

WTG, WGO!  Loved reading this!  It warmed my cockles (do women have cockles?)

((hugs))

Clarity

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Registered: 05-08-2012
Thu, 12-06-2012 - 9:22am

Yes Gal you are sooo over that!

Awesome post WGO! Hits the nail bang on the head! So great to see you reap the rewards of your hard work. I enjoyed the Christmas prep so much this year and oh the joy of not jumping like a ninja when the phone went.... This year you are "rocking around the Christmas tree, at the Christmas party hop...." Oh I can't wait for it now!

Much Love

Sunny Soon Xxx

 

 

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Registered: 09-30-2011
Thu, 12-06-2012 - 3:43pm

This is Awesome love it!! :)

iVillage Member
Registered: 02-19-2012
Thu, 12-06-2012 - 5:34pm

WGO...You rock!  Just the boost I needed today. 

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Registered: 12-09-2012
Sun, 12-09-2012 - 11:44pm

 WGO I loved reading that!!!!......I hope to be there next Christmas! I do dread Christmas day this year....that is in essence when it all started...some simple little texts all day long! Little did I know it was all part of a master plan by him to reel me in!!!  But at least I see it, I admit it, and Im not saying we were different and he really loved me and we are meant to be together...NOT! I do see that now but I know it will still sting a little on that day but hopefully not much because like you I wont be looking at my phone seeing if hes going to email me or message me or facebook me..because after 8 months...I have deleted him for good!

SBLAD formerly before  the new 'upgrade' ivillage...lilyflower(hockeymom:)