Daisy, you will get through this, one hour at a time. This is a very raw type of pain that truly just takes a little bit of time before the hurt eases. Please be gentle with yourself. Cry if you have to, take a nice bath. You are grieving, honey. We hear you and feel for you.I promise you that this will pass.
Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart... Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens. I started looking inside and went NC October 15, 2010
Daisy, I am so glad you are posting here. There is a true support system here. Reach out for it as often as you need to. Newlife's post was amazing - and spoke to my heart as well. I am fairly new to the whole ending thing...feeling pain, anger, shame, and now the horror of H discovering all of my filthy secrets. It has been exactly one week today that the rug was pulled out from under me after xAP sent H a letter revealing the horror of our A. I struggle with hatred towards him for taking that away from me - I was almost ready to go to H with the truth...how long it would have taken for me to do that, I do not know. But the truth is out now, and this past week has been extremely difficult for us. Please be good to yourself, Daisy. The emotions are great and there is nothing wrong with expressing them as you feel them. Support is here for you. Many many many hugs to you as well!
Hugs,
Alwayst
Daisy Daisy give me your answer, do...
I am sad, mad..at everyone involved...me, exAp, and my H.
I am so glad you are posting here. There is a true support system here. Reach out for it as often as you need to. Newlife's post was amazing - and spoke to my heart as well. I am fairly new to the whole ending thing...feeling pain, anger, shame, and now the horror of H discovering all of my filthy secrets. It has been exactly one week today that the rug was pulled out from under me after xAP sent H a letter revealing the horror of our A. I struggle with hatred towards him for taking that away from me - I was almost ready to go to H with the truth...how long it would have taken for me to do that, I do not know. But the truth is out now, and this past week has been extremely difficult for us.
Please be good to yourself, Daisy. The emotions are great and there is nothing wrong with expressing them as you feel them. Support is here for you. Many many many hugs to you as well!
Hearts <3