Let's try this again...

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Registered: 11-29-2011
Let's try this again...
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Sun, 04-15-2012 - 10:00am

Good morning,

Just in case I post (2) posts, I completely lost the first one, so I'll try this again.

Thanks for asking the newbies to keep posting and asking for help. While I'm not such a "newbie" here, I am back after falling back into the A for awhile, and will need the support going forward, because this ending stuff just kicks my A**!

It did both of us NO GOOD to hide out together, only caused more hurt as the emotional connection continued. I can't do it anymore, it's a dead end and I've hit the brick wall.....

So, I'm back, and this time, it HAS TO STICK! I'm determined to walk away and gain freedom to sort out my life.

Kim

I'm doing this for me because it's the "right" thing to do.... NC since 1/14/14

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Registered: 11-26-2009
Sun, 04-15-2012 - 10:29am
Hey Kim

Let me be the first to welcome you back - I too had to try 2 times before it stuck, I had to hit rock bottom where I did not know what was up or down in
my life anymore - thank god I was welcomed back!!

So what have you done to end the A? Have you blocked? Does he know it's over? Can you give a little recap on your story?

Im so please your here, and it sounds like you know it's the right place for you, so make the most of it and take advantage of all the advice you get.

I'm not the only person here who has fallen back into my A, and there is no way I want to see myself in that hell hole again - sounds like your ready to take control of your life back.

So how are you feeling sweetie?

WGO
Every recovery is a kind of rebirth
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Registered: 08-18-2011
Sun, 04-15-2012 - 10:47am
Yes, welcome! Share your story, your ending story, plans to keep strong and safe as you move forward!

Best wishes!

Gypsy
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Registered: 04-23-2010
Sun, 04-15-2012 - 11:13am

Dust yourself off.

Time to hit it again.

We only miss what could have been. I know I don't miss what it really was.

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Registered: 11-29-2011
Sun, 04-15-2012 - 11:17am
I'm feeling sad, of course, a little empty, and the best way to describe it, my heart aches, and sometimes the physical ache is over powering!
I ended it over the phone on Fri afternoon, explained that the A wasn't enough for me, that the pain and emotional roller coaster took more of a toll than the little bit of happiness the A did bring. That although we love one another, sometimes love isn't enouuhleted all emails, blocked as well and SMS msgs, deleted phone #, so there's no way I can contact or stalk, nor he...
It has to be over...
I'm in IC, though it really hasn't helped too much, I remain hopeful...these boards help me more than anything, and I'm thankful for the people here :)
So, after a year and a half, its time to clean up my act and find out what I need to make ME happy, other than the A. Not sure if my M can do that, but I need to clear my head and figure out what makes me happy before I even look there.
Thanks for listening :)
Kim

I'm doing this for me because it's the "right" thing to do.... NC since 1/14/14