Life can throw some crazy curve balls...

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Life can throw some crazy curve balls...
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Wed, 04-23-2003 - 2:46pm
I have been feeling so great the last few days. But what is strange is that the OM has e-mailed me again today. Saying that he has missed me mentally and physically, etc. This is really not like him....he is not one to put any kind of emotion out there and to top it off he's signing his e-mails "love, J." which is something back from our "honeymoon" days. So very strange. It's just a weird twist of fate and I am not going to drag him back into my life (It is hard, I was very much infatuated with him and still have him in my mind) because he deserves to have a woman who is completely his. But what craziness!!! I have wanted to know that he misses me to and I guess I've gotten my wish. I should remember what my mom used to say "be careful what you wish for, you just might get it!!!"

Hugs to you guys!!!

Karry

Karry - - who is learning to embrace life on her own raising her miracle, Carley Paige

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Wed, 04-23-2003 - 3:17pm
Karry,

I'm glad you realize that you don't want to bring him back into your life... and yes - I have wanted sometimes to feel like XMM still misses and wants me, but then to know that he does makes it harder and more painful in many ways too...

You are so right - be careful what you wish for......

Hugs

Glinda

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Wed, 04-23-2003 - 3:27pm
Oh Karry I have had so many of those moments - ego moments- is what I call them. Where I felt like he must not miss me or I must have misjudged his feelings for me becuase he hasnt tried to call. THEN OUT OF BLUE - CONTACT - rememeber last week I posted about his calling the radio station and dedicating a song to me??? You have no idea how hard it was NOT to call. I have learned to actually see these attempts at contact to me as challenges and ones that are making me stronger becuase each one I am fighting and not giving into! BUT then again I have a xOM who has plainly said - I will always be his first choice and love of his life and time will not change that. He is waiting even though I told him over and over not to. ughhh

Just keep praising yourself for not giving into this - it doesnt maek you a bad person if you dont respond - it makes you wise and strong and honest!!

Hugs hun I KNOW how hard ths is especially going back to your marriage and that isnt all peachy keen either - makes the temptation that much higher!!

High five to you for being strong!!

Racy

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Thu, 04-24-2003 - 8:36am
Racy and Glinda,

Thank you!!! No e-mails from him today. This is typical of him. He pours his feelings out a little and then re-thinks things and I don't hear from him for a while. But everytime this happens I freak out a little wondering if he was my one shot at true love, happiness, a soul mate. I just don't understand why I am so drawn to him....I've had plenty of boyfriends before I was married and none have had an effect on me like this man. One day I think I will know what I need to do with my life. Thanks again,

Karry

Karry - - who is learning to embrace life on her own raising her miracle, Carley Paige

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Thu, 04-24-2003 - 10:08am
It is funny how they pop back around at the strangest times. Good for you for staying strong. I know its not easy to keep the big picture in mind, but its best all around.

Crystal

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Thu, 04-24-2003 - 12:52pm
Thanks Crystal....

It is so good to get other people's oppinions who are going through this but can see a different perspective of my situation!!!

Take Care of yourself,

Karry

Karry - - who is learning to embrace life on her own raising her miracle, Carley Paige